it's oh so quiet.

an oversight.

2011-11-06T10:37:00.006+08:00

maybe i made a mistake.

a mistake to say that we shouldn't be talking until my spm exams are over.

it's already been more than a month now where i don't have someone to tell my day to,

or the fact that i don't have someone to laugh at my stupid jokes.

where i don't have someone to think my lame pickup lines are sweet,

or the fact that i don't have someone to care when i'm not doing so well.

now i just don't have someone whom i can share just about everything with.

"i don't have you," my heart whispers.

obvious to say, we have pals for that.

and that's what we are, really.

maybe.

"oh we're nothing less than friends."

a phrase i've thought up about us quite a while ago.

plain and simple; this conjecture about me and him.

but before i drift off again, i share (with whoever reads this),

an original poem i wrote to sum up how i felt so far.

sometimes _______,

i miss you.

sometimes my dear,

i don't.

though most of the time,

i do,

but to tell you this,

i won't.

lily allen, you mad genius you.

2011-08-07T09:35:00.004+08:00

i'll say it again, lily allen (or should i say cooper?) is absolutely brilliant.

her songs are relatable (in my case), the lyrics make you think deep and it's basically pure joy to sing along. i like how she's not so ordinary; standing out with her sweet voice, cheeky personality and piercing lyrics. you don't find a lot of other singers out there writing issues about racism, ageism, the sorts and then converting them into beautifully shameless melodies.

honestly, i'm relieved to hear she might be going back into the music industry again– kudos to her. i look forward to her amazing works.

now here's a song that describes my petty situation.

well, i should probably be off to study now, have got math exams tomorrow!

deprived.

2011-07-31T17:46:00.010+08:00

exams are so fucking near i can feel it breathing down my neck.

i need to sodding study now.

and what steps did i take to ensure available study time? logging out of everything and de-activating every website i frequently visit, except of course my e-mail. but even that has been empty lately, nobody wants to (or can) notify me of anything anymore.

ever since i started this fast again, i don't know what to type into the internet address everytime i'm online.

that's good, i guess.

but nonetheless, i feel devoid. with all this happening, it even might induce me to blog more due to my incredible yearning to still stay in touch with the net.

i'm going off now. though before doing so, i share with you my favorite songs from deerhoof and cocorosie. enjoy.

The Last HP Movie.

2011-07-21T21:26:00.010+08:00

I finally watched it.

As the last Harry Potter movie started to play on the theatre screen, I just sank physically and mentally in my seat. Deep in thought, I reminiscence back to when I was my naive six years old self.

Just about ten years ago, I sit between my parents at the old GSC cinema completely enchanted because it was most probably the first fantasy film I’ve ever seen. I recall thinking as a child that Hagrid was best, Hermione had funny hair and Dudley seem fit indeed as a pig. Above it all, I also wished I was one of Harry Potter’s best mates (instead of Ron too actually).

Twas Monday night and again I sat between my parents watching the sequel to the last book. It wasn't bad, but could've been better. Well, I do like movies with good beginnings. So basically, I was quite fond of the introduction. Watching it in 3D didn’t do much for me though. The only thing that I remember popping out at me was the subtitles, and that’s not very good is it? But alas, I’ll let it be.

About two hours or so later, the credits start rolling and honestly, I felt kinda empty. Like I’ve lost a friend of some sort. Funny when people say it’s going to be the close of their childhood with this saga ending and what not; albeit now having seen it, it doesn’t seem like anything but the truth. Maybe the whole lot of us is just over-exaggerating? You don’t have to take my word for it.

I’m not a very dedicated fan of the series if I didn’t read the books, so I decided to borrow Jeron’s copies and begin my journey of rediscovering what the motion pictures didn’t show me.

Just recently up to the fifth chapter of ‘The Philosopher’s Stone’ and I’ve got to tell you that seeing the movie before reading this novel had helped me remember what seems to be a distant memory of all I’ve sustained in the back of my brain. I know I don’t get the privilege of imagining how the characters or what the magical settings of these stories look like because I’ve already watched it fall in place beforehand, but it doesn’t bother me much. Everyone and everything to me, was perfectly casted. In other words, it actually feels nice. Anyway, this is good stuff I’m reading and I’m hoping I can finish all seven books before my big government exams. Though, I’m not going to rush it either as I’ve got other literary components I have to get drilled in my head too.

I ought to end this post soon, but first, I want to thank J. K. Rowling ever so much for making one of the best compendiums out there this decade. Cheers to you.

God, him and finally me.

2011-05-15T09:57:00.015+08:00

Remember how I mentioned my new year's resolution for 2011 was to never, ever fall for anyone in fear it would just totally ruin my concentration to ace my government exams?

It's not working out so well.

There's this guy I know, ever since grade school actually. But we weren't really friends then; it's just like one of those situations where you know his name, his class, maybe his friends and that's about it. These things supposedly remain the way they are, forever. I would have never imagined us connecting.

And then on one random afternoon, he just decided to leave me a random as heck comment on Facebook and we've been conversing ever since.

Whatever compelled him to do it? I would hint God had helped out too. My relationship with the Lord went down a spiral after Esther left. I stopped truly committing my time to praying, neither did I make any effort to read the Bible. But it hit me soon enough that I shouldn't be shunning my religion like so. It was after that realization that I started devoting myself again. I prayed for something good. Next thing I knew, God showered me with a wonderful day. Things like that don't happen without a reason and I bet He knew all along that it would cheer me up and entirely change me seeing that I was slowly degrading my whole life into depression, anxiety and exhaustion.

Back on topic, he proposed that we'd meet up on July when he came back here and then he'd take me out somewhere amusing. Nonetheless, I happily agreed. But even so, I actually did some serious thinking about the idea. I wasn't truly sure what kind of person he was, so I poked around. Albeit I didn't find out anything much, I decided maybe I should just take this risk and have my fun. After all, I've got nothing to loose but a heart that can be mended.

Earlier yesterday, I actually told him I would be deactivating myself from the internet until my exams were over. I hope I do good on my mid-term exams coming up tomorrow, or it would've just been such bloody hell finding out I wasted all my time and energy for a plan that didn't even work.

Last night? Well, it was awesome. He wanted to call before the two weeks of crazy carried on. I was actually quite shy about it, because I didn't think I would know what to say. But we talked for 5 or so hours into the morning. Actually, I felt kinda bad because I was depriving him from his sleep and he has to go to work tomorrow. We hung up soon after so long (actually I did), but not intentionally. It was all because my phone had ran dead on battery. Just a suggestion, but this could have been a sign from above or some other extraordinary, paranormal activity. No, I refuse to believe in coincidences.

Damn it, I think I'm beginning to miss him already. Now how in tarnation is this fast going to last for the next 288 hours?

I'm not always brave.

2011-03-21T20:07:00.006+08:00

Today, our Religious Knowledge teacher conducted an interesting activity for class. We were asked to go out into the field and search for something that represented our identity. And so we went and searched. I had friends who picked big, yellow flowers, some had Mentos wrappers, a straw and the majority of the guys chose wood-related objects.

One of my very best guy friends who picked the straw stated something interesting.

"I picked this because even though no matter how many times or in which direction I bend it, it just gets back up. Metaphorically, I think this is me. But take note, the straw will forever have a mark on where it once bent over."

I reworded this, but it doesn't change the point of it.

And another guy in my class also said something that caught my attention.

"I picked this leaf because it blows away easily. Just like my confidence."

Some just made jokes about themselves.

"I picked this candy wrapper because I just don't enjoy this flavour."

"I picked this twig because I'm as skinny as it."

"I picked this pink petal because I like going to Pink World." (Okay, WTF to this guy who actually said this.)

Now me? I actually wanted to catch this beautiful white butterfly, but I thought to myself how I am so unlike it at all. So instead, I decided to follow it and see where it would lead me. Eventually, I found it. I picked this really small, white flower that grows out far and short among the grasses.

When it was my turn to share, I completely lied. Even though I thought about what I really wanted to say for so long, I just didn't have the courage to say it out loud.

"I picked this because even though I have a big personality, inside I'm really just this small girl."

That was utter bullshit that makes no sense at all. I was the last one to speak and I wanted to keep it short because I didn't want to my form mates to wait on me since it was also recess. But seriously? 'Small girl' was not a wise choice of an adjective. Well, okay maybe it is partially true if you I replaced it with . I guess.

Here's what I really, really wanted to say :

"I picked this because most people would probably overlook it or not be bothered by it's existence. Just because it doesn't stand out and it was too tiny to see. Maybe this represents my need on how much I want to be found. To be acknowledged. I'm not plain and boring. I know I'm not. I'm shy, but I crave attention too. Get to know me and I'm as loud as can be. Albeit if I was left me on my own, I'd still be alright. It's been like that so many times that I think I should just get use to it. "

a half boyfriend.

2011-03-15T17:18:00.005+08:00

Have you ever heard of the term "half boyfriend"? Let me introduce you to the significance of it.

Well the last I used it was when I mentioned how many past relationships I had have. And to be exact, two and a half. Now how so do you end up with a "half boyfriend" you may query? I'll explain it from the start. I have had one relationship in which where both of us were in the same area, one with a guy who lives in a different district and Mr "half-boyfriend" just completely stays in a different state (I keep asking myself, why does my relationship part from me further and further?) The next thing you know, it's a different country. Or heck maybe my future beau lives in a whole different continent, if possible.

Let's rename Mr "half-boyfriend" to something less gaudy. I'll just call him Jay (as in Jay Chao, because his voice sounds exactly as if I were talking to the Taiwanese superstar himself and I don't want to go for something obvious and totally out of topic, like Bob for instance.) Now me and Jay met on a tour to China. Less than a week, we thought we had something. And when the tour ended, we parted with sad goodbyes and me with some rather painful feet (I've been trotting all over China with boots too small for me, you CAN'T expect it not to hurt.) Like I mentioned above, he lives in a entirely different state. So what would you think? Goodbye forever right since we've never even hugged or anything, not even holding hands and stuff?

Wrong.

Somehow, the next morning when I awoke, or later that day (excuse my memory), he got my number from a mutual friend and we just talked for a while. This became a regular thing for the rest of the week and then suddenly,*BOOM* it's girlfriend/boyfriend. Yes, I would admit that was quick. And maybe the decision was hasty, I don't know. I'm just saying'.

He began college soon after that. Then we would text or maybe even call sometimes, we would ring each other up on Skype and chat on MSN. And the gem of it all, maybe even do video chat! Oh my gosh, you could not believe the joy on my face when I saw his face for the first time in ages! I was all like butterflies in my gut and lungs and in my throat. I think I was so happy I might have even freaked him out a bit with my glee (can you blame me? I'm like that when I miss people).

And then it happened. Everything got weird with time. Text, calls, IM'ing, Skype. We'd talk for an hour or so, but I'd get annoyed so easily with stuff he'd say from then on. I don't know if he noticed this, but he says "I love you" too many times in one day. Seriously, it was like an overdose; too much of a good thing as they would say. Sometimes he would use this high-pitched voice to converse with me, the voice you use when you talk to cute animals and babies. I can assure you I am neither adorable and an animal or just basically, into stuff like that. This one time where he sent me all seven links of his past girlfriends' Facebook. And he'd ask me what I thought of them. Well, what the duck. The last time I ever saw his face on video chat, I don't think my facial expressions consisted of less sentiments, ever. "Meh."

I didn't even care if we didn't connect for the next 3 days. What can I say? I thought I was just giving him space, since it's his first week at college and I don't want to bother him. But I had to face the facts, absence certainly didn't make my heart go fonder. We weren't meant to be. He lived so far away that if I suddenly had this odd urge to see him, I would need to steal my dad's car and illegally drive somewhere for the next 14 hours or more with valid, but interestingly fake ID and some random above 18 person as a legit guardian/company for the long journey ahead. Or either I could just board a plane, which is not as simple as it sounds. And I don't think he was very fond of my music taste (I'm strange when in comes to melodies). But the point is, I'm not that deluded. Not about him or just in general, you know?

Yeah, I accepted him as a boyfriend. Though, was it a real relationship? The sparks were there, but momentarily. There was never any future in it. I think he felt it too. We didn't even last a month before we split.

But I can't pretend it didn't happen. And did I truly not credit him by saying he was a "half-boyfriend"? I suppose some might think it was better if I didn't consider him at all. Even if you find this title degrading, I can't say I'm sorry you don't like the way I think.

I don't regret it though. He told me once that I could learn stuff from relationships. And one important thing I certainly learnt was that I shan't ever rush again whenever I'm making an important decision. Take some time and think things through. It's all for the better.

you were meant to be mine

2011-02-13T18:53:00.010+08:00

I have a confession. The other day, when I was wandering around the Vietnam airport at about 7.45 in the morning, I saw it out of the corner of my eye. I almost killed myself and it is all because of this man.

Marc Jacobs.

Damn him for creating the most perfect pair of sunglasses I have ever laid my eyes on! You cannot imagine the desire burning in me for another pair of those beautiful creations. (it was intense, in short). Priced at USD$140, how can I not resist?! Here take a look at it.

Isn't it absolutely gorgeous? I looked good in it too (even if I do say so myself). Well, too bad I can't have it! It was all because of that wicked holiday tour guide woman, who convinced my mom that we were about to fly, so it's best I don't waste time (shopping is not a time waster!) or I won't be able to board the plane. I waited 30 minutes before we were actually supposed to go. Seriously?!

30 minutes, I could have bought 10 pairs of sunnies, sample 22 pieces of fine chocolate, ate 4 scoops of ice cream and still have time left to take a brief 8 minute nap! And right after that 30 minutes of staring at my parents with pleading, dry eyes, my mom decides I can go and buy the glasses. Bad timing was a plus as the stewardess announces we can go in for checking. Oh my gosh. Holy crap. Hell no.

There was a really long queue before it was our turn, so I tried to tell my mom I would be quick as possible, but you know how mothers are. They won't reason with you! The whole trip back home I was sulking, dwelling in despair, all moody and sorts. I think I scared off this Vietnamese girl who was supposedly sitting next to my bad aura. (Oops.)

Anyway, I might not have gotten what I wanted. But I'm saving up for it, because I just checked that www.marcjacobs.com sells them for only US$98! (That's the best news ever!) I'm hoping my mom will let me order it or something. Or maybe during my birthday, some unexpected stranger who happens to stumble across my blog will take this as a hint as of how much I want it? Hah, highly unlikely, I know. Okay, now I'm fantasizing again. What if Marc Jacobs himself, in some weird fate, happens to be reading this? That would be. Wow.

Dear Marc Jacobs,

I adore you and everything about you. I know you're gay and I support that, but I've got to say, I've got a mighty crush on you too. You look absolutely dashing in anything you wear and that Spongebob tattoo you've got on your right arm? Couldn't be potrayed better by any other man.

Your creations are eye-catching, versatile and easy to wear. I've already got your Marc Mode Pelly watch with pop-pink indexes. A pair of MJ sunglasses with purple metal rims and gradient shades which is also in purple. Now what I desperately want is that oversized sunglasses in Crys Purple Black paired with gray shades at your Marc by Marc Jacobs collection (picture reference above). And also a man who uses Bang by Marc Jacobs. That would be incredibly sexy.

Anyway, I don't want to bore you with over-excessive praise even though I have lots more to say. So goodbye for now.

Love (forever),

Nicole.

Adventure

2011-02-08T18:11:00.003+08:00

I am in the hotel lobby of Vietnam and bored to bits. So I suppose I'll tell you a little about my adventure and upload some pictures in a later date. Anyway, I think Vietnam is absolutely amazing. Of all the crappy holiday tours I've been on, this is the best so far.

Well let's start off with the residents.

I love the people here! The people are actually really nice. And Yien guessed right, loads of eye candy to admire. And some of them can speak cantonese, which is a big plus. If I did get lost here, I might have a chance of a dashing Vietnamese man who speaks this chinese dialect to help me and treat me to some skewered beef.

Hah, I wish.

I think the food here is great, might be because of the quality control influenced by the French invasion decades ago. Listen to this, baguettes buttered on the inside and filled with scrambled eggs, sun-riped tomatoes and ham of many variety. Doesn't that make your mouth water like a fountain? (If not, I reccommend you try it first.) And also the beef noodles they call Phở (pronounced as FA) is so, so, so good! I swear, even if I have to hit the roads and sit in their really tiny plastic stools with a huge crowd passing by in all directions and just as the wind of the millions of motorcycles that zoom pass bringing dust and sand into my bowl of Phở, I will still eat it. It's just too damn good to pass up.

One thing I don't like is the currency they use. They call it Dong and most of the notes do not end with less than 3 zeros. Confuses the hell out of me when I go shopping. Though, (thank God) that they also accept US dollars here. So that makes buying things much easier.

Strangely enough and I cannot understand why, but I have a compulsion to buy unrequited trinkets. An hour ago, I used about USD$47 to buy an enormous sum of crap. That amounts up to 9 bracelets, 2 necklaces, an ice-cream, some minty gum, 2 brass rings, a pack of tamarind flavoured candy (best buy!), 2 anklets and also some melon gum. See what I mean by pointless?

Anyway, the sad news is I have to return to my country tomorrow. I actually didn't know I had to go so soon and am terribly depressed to go back. I adore Vietnam and would love to come here again. Maybe next time I'll come alone and explore the likes of Ho Chin Minh again.

Confessionals.

2011-02-01T18:17:00.005+08:00

I think I have been missing the sole intention of blogging. Somewhere in my head, I ponder about what readers are going to think of the content I blog about. Well that way of thinking has changed. I want to blog because I want to express myself. By the way, I don't think I even have readers. But if I do, salutations to you.

Today I'm going to write about an almost untouched topic in these two years of my home blog.

Love.

I choose this subject because it is the month of l'amour (and my birthday). I also never wrote much about it because of what I think my friends or non-friends (but know me anyway), would tell-tale about me when I blog about love related issues. It has happened before, that's why I rarely do so anymore, unlike in 2009.

Anyway, my 2011 new year's resolution for love would include how I will not have another boyfriend and how I will not fall in love. Mainly because I have major important exams coming up this year and I have to do my best at it. I get easily distracted by my beaus, so yes I don't mind being single until SPM is over.

I'll start off with when I broke up with my last boyfriend in October of 2010.

I have to be honest, he was a rebound guy. But I always tried forcing myself to think otherwise. We lived too far away from one another for the relationship to work properly. And I feel really bad for him, because he genuinely did love me for me. We lasted about 9 months before I couldn't take it anymore. I didn't want to waste his time to love someone who couldn't love him as equally much, so I let him go with the reason of how this long-distance relationship was getting too hard for me to handle. Before we ended our connection, he mentioned that if I really did love him it would still work and the feelings wouldn't fade. Are you thinking of how "absence makes the heart grow fonder"? In 9 months, I have only seen him 14 times. That quote is getting overrated.

I guess in the end he would figure it out, he would realise that I just didn't love him enough to want to work things out. All I have to say is, I'm sorry.

Here's another bit that's also hard to talk about. When I was with my last boyfriend, I actually also fancied someone else (up until January of 2011 and I made that vow of no-love thing?). And in case you're wondering I only have two and a half ex-boyfriends (the half one I'll explain next time) and not a million and one ex-boyfriends because the way I'm typing it out right now, it sounds like I do.

My feelings for this guy were inevitable. And I would always feel guitly about this because I was already taken at that time. But it was so long since my first boyfriend that I felt something really tugging me at the strings of my heart. I would do things intentionally so I could get his attention. I would write his name in my notebook and see how it would fit with mine. I would think of what it would feel like to kiss him.

Fuck. Now I'm blushing like mad because of having just realise how crazy I was about him. This is stupid.

I knew we could never be together. I don't even think that he ever saw how much he could affect my whole day. Also, when he was single, I was taken. And now it's vice versa. When he just started things with this chic, people tell me how great they look together and the likes. That bit I hated the most because I have to agree with them. The guy that I have liked very, very much for the past 6 months looks good together with that girl who took him away.

The last day I saw him, I cried all the way back home.

Sports.

2011-01-22T20:15:00.003+08:00

Just had school's sports today. It was the first time in five years that I rather enjoyed it. Though the teachers/students got me so unsure of my races.

It first started off that I had the 800m and 4 x 400 relay races.

Then it was 800m, 1500m and 4 x 400m.

Then the 1500m and 4 x 400m.

Then the 1500m and 4 x 100m.

Then I've suddenly switched back to 1500 and 4 x 400m.

My Lord, look at all the numbers.

Anyway, I was glad I've got my medal for Girls A Long Jump event. I find it a little embarassing that Dayang in Girls B who also got third did better than me by 0.05 metres. Well, what can I say? She had longer legs probably (and she didn't weigh as much of a fat pig like me).

I have no idea who created these plastic medals that we're suppose to be proud of, but damn do they resemble a durian. They're kinda cheap looking too. It was so much better when Yien's dad was making it for our school.

For the 1500m race, my opponents were Michelle, Nicole, Kathryn and Angel. I was the only girl for Blue House. By the second round of running, I didn't bother to finish it. That was my plan from the start anyway. This is because, (and I have been telling this to the teachers/students who continuously pick me for races like these in the last five years) I AM NOT A LONG DISTANCE RUNNER.

And then the 4 x 400m! Holy crap. Felt nervous as shit, didn't have spiked shoes so Leena graciously lent me hers. I was afraid my feet would burst because I felt a little crammed and jammed wearing them. Though seriously, it was a fun run. Mei's friend said to me and Karen, "You can't run, so jog or something okay?" First of all, I didn't really hear him so I just smiled because again, I am nervous as shit. Karen kinda rephrased what he said to us later on and boy was we mad. Well, maybe like for five seconds. But come on! Like Karen said, anyone can run! It justs depends on whether they're good or not! Though he was kinda cutesy. I think I saw him at Starbucks once. Yes, I remember faces. My brain space is vacant because most of the time it isn't used for anything like studying or writing the next Magnum Opus. The directory of random people in my head is always available.

So I was the first runner. My dad was there shooting plenty of photos of me with my crap face and elephant thighs. I didn't actually know he came until much later when I was out in the field. Anyway, the guns went off, adrenaline on rush, nerves tight as glue and I ran. I didn't run at Flash speed, but I did manage not to get overtaken by Michelle. She was sick in the tummy if I remembered cleary. Kimberley, no surprise was way ahead of me. I guess some people were pretty much at awe that I could keep up. Then it was Karen's turn. I passed her the baton and went in the shade with Michelle. Rolled in the grass until my dad asked me to get up and run around (it's not healthy to sit after a race, let alone lay down somewhere).

End Result : 2nd place!

It was awesome. Overall super award goes to Blue! Best athlete for Girls A, Blue! Best athlete for Boys B? Also Blue! Team Blue is wicked awesome. I think for the marching event thing we could have won too, it was just that we were disqualified because we lack ONE member. Damn.

Since we're on that topic, I should say something about that too. Oh my fudgecakes. I was the board sign holder girl thing third year in a row (I'm lame). I wore a blue cheongsam and Prada heels. Big mistake on the heel thing. I've got a blister. Them Prada has got mud all over the base because we went into the field of doom. It was originally my mom's and guess what? She went balistic when she found out the mess I've made. It was hot. Expected, because I live in the tropics. And also I think I smudged a little mascara onto my nose. Oh well.

Word game.

2011-01-12T20:39:00.003+08:00

I'm just going to start off with one random word and it'll lead to a sentence and then I have to make another sentence with the last word I used and you have to read it all because I think you're nice.

Painkillers.

It doesn't work for me.

Me.

A rather eccentric person.

Person.

Not everyone is really nice.

Nice.

You should give me gummy bears for my birthday.

Birthday.

Mine is coming in about a month or so.

So.

What do you think of Michael Jordan?

Jordan.

The guy that used to be in my school with an accent.

Accent.

I want a really tall guy with a sexy accent and a tan.

Tan.

My body does not consist of the same shades.

Shades.

I love Marc Jacobs.

Jacobs.

Biscuit cracker brand thing.

Thing.

Caterpillar eyebrows are funny.

Funny.

The knock knock joke that involved Mr interrupting pirate.

Pirate.

I wonder what were to happen if someone made me walk the plank.

Plank.

My dad says not to be selfish or to go overboard.

Overboard.

Again, I am thinking of pirates.

Pirates.

X marks the spot.

Spot.

Why do we have acne?

Acne.

They won't go away.

Away.

I'm gonna stop because I'm getting bored.

Bored.

I predict you feel the same way too.

Whole new year.

2011-01-01T23:31:00.000+08:00

Happy Twenty Eleven, everybody.

This time, I spent my new years in the hospital.

It was the night before 2010 ended. I waited up for my parents so we could have dinner together. We had lots of cheese, wine and bread ( very Parisian, non? ).

But after the very late dinner, it hit me. This awful stomach ache that felt like Rocky high on steroids blowing off steam on my belly. An exaggerated metaphor, but heck it hurts. This went on for about 5 hours, before my dad started to believe I might actually require getting professional help. My mom got kinda tipsy with the bottle of old wine, so she was laughing at me the whole time.

Anyway, my dad drove me to the hospital at about 2 AM. Side note : I get paranoid over things at night. When we were in the hospital, I kept being on the look out for paranormal activity. Always figuring something's following me. Or maybe that "they" were watching from above the ceilings. Because |Hospital + Night time = Creepy things|. Well, that's my theory. Luckily, nothing bad happened that early morning.

So on they way to the doctor's office awaits a depressing old man that mumbles his sentences. Though, I don't expect more from the doctor because honestly, who'd be all wide-awake and cheery to work at 2.15 in the new year's morning?

He asks me a few questions.

"Where's the pain?"

"When's your last period?"

"How long has this been going on for?"

Then after I answered all his question, he mumbled to no one in particular "Definitely not pregnant".

When he said that, my mind just went "LOLWTF". It was funny. Minutes later, he asks me to lie down in the patient bed and then pokes my flabby belly with his old man index finger. He ponders for a moment, wrote vigorously on his clipboard and then diagnosed me with Gastric problems. Gave me loads of pills, pain killers and a bottle of weird juice. Me and my dad went home soon after listening to his hardly understandable lecture of eating at the right time and what not to avoid future dilemmas.

Home at last, so I ran to my room. Popped in some pain killers and went to bed. Though problem is, I still could not sleep. Thought about plenty of stuff while waiting for the effects to kick in. Didn't work at all. My belly still hurts and eventually the pain wore me out.

Woke up at 9 AM for breakfast. I've got Melon bread, so that was sorta the highlight of the morning. Got tired at 11, so I slept until 1.30 PM. Lunch time : my daddy's home-made noodles. Rested again at 3 - 5 PM. And the total amount of sleep I've had for today is moreorless 15 hours. That's about two times my average amount.

Anyway, my koi fish died today. The oldest and largest one. It probably has been living with us for over a decade. What a pity. Hope it goes to fish heaven or some sort.

Against Child Violence.

2010-12-04T20:17:00.000+08:00

Have you all heard?

To support the fight against child violence, change your Facebook profile picture to a cartoon character from your childhood and invite your friends to do the same! Until Monday (which would be December 6) there should be no human faces on Facebook, but instead, an invasion of memories and joy. For the fight against child violence, be a part of the movement!

For me, I chose the Angry Beavers (image above). I used to be a Nickelodeon nut. Loving everything from Aah! Real Monsters! to Kenan & Kel. Seriously, they should bring back old school Nick. I admit iCarly and Victorious might be fun to watch, but I'd never be sad if I missed an episode (or ten for that matter). Unlike the show from the 90's "All That", which I'd really once or twice threw a tantrum when I skipped the opening theme song. ..

What? It was a catchy song to sing to. ;___;

Friday.

2010-12-03T22:26:00.000+08:00

Out with Mitzi to Suria! We watched Disney's new movie, "Tangled". Yay for animated films! At first, I thought it was called "Rapunzel", because that's what we know the story as. Anyway, it's a really awesome movie. Anyone who has doubts of watching it, clear it from your head! This movie just makes me wanna have magic hair and cute guys crashing in my house at random. Oh, and also a pan (you'll find out why if you watch the movie). Though, I'd recommend not watching it in 3D. There's not much popping out to touch you and the glasses just make my nose itch.

After the movie, we went out in search for food. Then I saw someone. I won't tell you who, but I almost crashed into the wall, gaping.Well, Mitzi saved me. Thank God. I was less than a centimeter away from it. We were laughing mad like coyotes after that incident. We go to Kenny Rogers for lunch. Order muffins, pasta, corn and Sky juice. So the waiter took all our orders and went. But he comes back in a minute and tells us Sky juice is not in stock. Wow. We just literally laughed in his face. I clarified to him Sky juice was another term for water and the waiter went red. Laughed again after he left. We're so mean. Anyway, the meal was alright. Wasn't really bad. Just tolerable. Their muffins weren't so nice though. They used to have larger sized vanilla muffins that had a fluffy feeling when you take the first bite. Now it's just feels soggy. Ugh. Oh, and I saw Andy again. Coincidences.

Tonight, I have a craving for ice-cream. I didn't eat ice-cream in so long. So I went in search for it in my fridges. I found Wall's Vanilla but I didn't eat it because I didn't like Wall's and I didn't really like Vanilla. So I phoned up my mom to buy some, so I could eat. Then I played Runescape. Haha, it has been so long ago since I last played. My main account died, so I created a new one. I didn't know I could play games like that on Mac before. Just found out today, because my friend asked me to. But I completely gave up after an hour. Sucks because it kept crashing.

Then, my mom came back from work with ice-cream and cake! Snickers ice-cream for me. I am completely and utterly ecstatic. Bless her.

Frugal poodle.

2010-11-30T18:52:00.001+08:00

Today I went on a date with Farah (we're not lesbian by the way)!

We went to 1B and did loads of stuff that does not involve money.

Yes, we are very frugal. And I was trying to save up for Christmas.

Anyway, breakfast with her at Starbucks.

One choc chip drink and one very stale muffin.

And that was it for BOTH of us.

For lunch, we went to Sushi King.

One salmon steak set meal, courtesy of Andy.

He sponsored us $5 so we could manage our budget.

And that was it for BOTH of us.

Oh right, about Andy.

We bumped into him and talked a while.

Tricked him into believing there was a pool in 1B. ;)

Anyway, I think we both could happily say we lost weight.

We were trying tons of clothes on, didn't buy anything.

Went to loads of places messing up clothes and taking pics.

Trying clothes is a calorie burner.

We also went to Times and cam-whored with the books.

Did you know that books under Law are so vividly colourful?

Tempted to buy the collection, but I just didn't have $4018 on me.

So, we went home early. Or I could say me.

As I went home today, I literally collapsed on my bed.

Didn't wake up until very, very late.

Spoilers.

2010-11-28T20:11:00.001+08:00

READ IF YOU ARE A SPOILER.

or if you like cottage cheese, music and ice-cream.

So I was watching Ice Age 3 (don't judge me!), and then my mom's friend's daughter starts blurting out whatever that's gonna happen. Honestly, I don't need to know! I want to watch my movie in peace, so why don't you continue playing your "Happy Pets" and leave me alone!

The thing with spoilers are, that they don't get the message.

They don't get why you DON'T want to know what happens!

Well the thing is, we do want to know. We just want to find out ourselves. So I'm like yelling "SHUTUP! SHUTUP! SHUTUP!" in my mind. But I can't really tell her to shut up, because she's a kid. And I'm older than her so I have to set a good example and all that crap.

The experience watching the whole movie, knowing what's going to happen is not fun. I'm the type of person who can't read books twice because I'm just not feeling it anymore if I know what's gonna happen. Though if I do read books 2-3 times over, it must be a really good book to make me do so (either that, or I just can't remember what it was about).

Eye candy.

2010-11-27T08:18:00.000+08:00

koike teppei. (on the right)

i've been a fan of his movies ever since lovely complex. i absolutely adore the movie. it's about this 6 ft. tall girl and a 5 ft. short boy overcoming their differences and eventually falling in love. there's this other movie he starred it, kids. that's was touching. koike plays the lead character whom can heal other people by taking their wounds and injuries but have to place them onto himself instead.

as you can guess, he's japanese. it seems now it's trending "koreans", but personally i still love japanese people. i've got lost in tokyo disneyland once too, but that's another story. anyway, koike is just a really cute/believable actor. he's a musician too, but i don't think i've ever really heard WaT's songs. so oh well.

yun ho. (on the left since koike's on the right)

now no longer in dbsk, he's out there raw in korea. but i will still remember the short films he did with dbsk. my personal favorite is dangerous love. well, jae joong thought yun ho is gay for him in the film. and the rest if you want to find out, watch! seriously though, i squealed a lot watching.

among all the members of dbsk, i find him the most good-looking. i know jae joong got the sexiest/cutest/handsomest male award in asia, but to me he kinda looks like a blushing girl. now steady there hero fangirls, don't come into my house with a gun and point it to my head as you make me edit that phrase up there. that's just my opinion because i'm a u-know fan and i have a thing for people with tans and uppity hair. :)

Americanized.

2010-11-26T16:18:00.001+08:00

technically, thanksgiving is a north american holiday.

so why are people all around the world so try-hard wishing everybody else a happy thanksgiving? i say to you mr united states, you're a big influence.

seriously though, a lot of culture originating from anywhere but america is dying. the movies, the music and even politics from there just basically gets more attention. it's not a bad thing, but it isn't all so great either.

for example, i could name you ten celebrities who host their own talk shows from america, but i can't even mention one from malaysia. i don't even know if we have talk shows. and if we do, it's probably hosted by a mohammed something.

maybe another example would be to ask me to list ten sitcoms that come from americans. i could do that without blinking because i grew up watching them. now ask me to do the same, except for the fact i were to name sitcoms from where i'm from instead. i think i might have to scramble over and google that bit of information to find out.

is it already inevitable that the world will fall in to the hands of westerners?

well, the way things are looking now, i think not. because we asians are still here and we can also conquer. take note now that we're taking over sports with china, music with korea and also the kawaii/oddball factor from japan.

so look out. we're more dangerous than you think we'd be.

Tragedies.

2010-11-23T21:29:00.000+08:00

death is a busy man making deals with war.

north korea and south at it again.

so many people; innocent or not, they still die.

i honestly do not know why this war begun anyway.

though i have other questions regardless.

are you willing to die for your country?

are you willing to die because your boss said so?

are you willing to die so you don't have to face the truth?

the wish for world peace is bullshit.

no one works towards the dream.

how can anyone expect this to happen?

by magic and david copperfield?

you must be very clever if you think so.

Long time.

2010-09-23T19:50:00.000+08:00

So yesterday during physics, 90% of us didn't finish the teacher's homework.

Sure it was just one question, but it still meant punishment.

We were to shove all our books in our bags and place them up above our heads for the lesson. I'm so lucky I'm the type of kid who doesn't bring most of her books.

I just kinda pity those who never ever pack their bags.

They're carrying everything from the timetable; Monday to Friday.

After the lesson we had to stay back and listen to Section B of the retribution.

We were to go home and write "I WILL FINISH ALL MY PHYSICS HOMEWORK GIVEN BY THE TEACHER IN THE FUTURE" about 150 times.

There was this guy in my class who talked back.

So teacher made him write it 300 times.

I go home and do it. I made sure mine was more special than the rest.

Therefore, I did it in the colours of the rainbow.

I hope the teacher won't recycle my hard work and maybe frame it too.

So today I talked to my cookie. It's been a really long time since I've had a chat with her. And it goes all fine and stuff like we normally talk about.

She then tells me this secret or something. I really was heartbroken for her.

She deserves to be happy.

She does.

I'm deluded.

2010-08-31T07:36:00.001+08:00

I constantly hurt myself.

I keep a straight face.

My mind is blank.

Just for a little while though.

Then the rue memories fill in my head.

I welcome the pain in each of them.

And I see how long it takes before I breakdown.

My dA.

2010-08-30T22:53:00.000+08:00

http://nickary.deviantart.com

it's laughable. let me post the stats.

nickary has 227 pageviews total and her 4 deviations were viewed 151 times.

She watches 0 people, while 0 people watch her.
Overall, her deviations received 0 comments and were added to deviants' favourites 2 times, while she commented 7 times, making about 0.03 comments per day since she joined DA. This means that she gave 7 comments and received none.
Her deviation with the most comments is Cammile with 0 comments, and it is also her most favourited, with 1 favourites. Her most viewed deviation is fine lines with 103 views.
0 Favourites were given for every 10 Comments.
Every 47.9 days she uploads a new deviation, and it's usually on a Wednesday, with 1 (25%) of her deviations.
Her busiest month was July 2010 with 2 (50%) of her deviations.

seriously, help me out and don't make it look so depressing.

plus, i'm gonna upload photography. doesn't need me to think much.

the thing that's got me a little ticked is how long it takes to submit a damn picture. gahh.

Sleeping Bear

2010-07-27T20:35:00.000+08:00

Getting a lot of ZZZZZ'z today.

In the car this morning.

Then during add math in class.

In the lab during chemistry.

Slept the whole time for recess.

After my physics test, I went to sleep.

Then the next 2 classes I was awake.

Asleep during english.

In the same state for EST class.

Got back in the car for a quick nap.

Went home and slept in the couch.

Woke up for a head massage.

Then I'm sleeping again until 6.30.

Now that's about it.

Guess what I'm doing next?

I'm gonna go to sleep now. :)

Weekend Fun

2010-07-11T20:28:00.000+08:00

Saturday:

I started my morning with a sweet for breakfast.

It was a really odd tasting candy, but oh well.

I went for my lunch with Gee and Mitzi.

We ate at Kentucky, was an overall fun gathering.

He got us gifts from HK Disneyland!

Lots and lots of candy to share between us.

I really regretted I didn't get him a better gift. ):

After that we bid farewell to our dear friend.

Me and her planned on going for 7k together.

I am so glad we went! I saw so many old friends.

Though I was walking most of the time, it was fun.

My hand got more tired than my legs from all that waving.

I wish I knew about 7k earlier. The T-shirts looked really nice.

Well, we thought we'd go home at 8.30pm.

And meeting Mitzi's friends were nice. Very friendly people. :]

But we kinda finished within one hour, so we head back earlier.

Actually her parents were planning on going for dinner together.

Though, I feel a little more than stinky and I don't want to intrude.

So I went home and bathe. Leaving them to themselves.

Anyway, a while after my refreshing shower, he called me.

Oh gosh. I miss him so much. I like how he listens to me.

Even though he's often quiet, he remembers what I say.

So I was talking to him; he's at home, and so am I.

There's this whole other story to that, after that, before that.

I wanna share. But I'm thinking I'll keep some moments untold.

Feels better that way.

So it was just this really magical day.

Sunday:

I'm sitting on my couch watching telly waiting for Karen.

She comes around 11-ish and then we wait for Farah.

You know what? Karen has not seen a lot of movies.

Farah comes by somewhen before 1pm and we eat.

My mom cooked spaghetti, but it felt a little dry. Sssh.

We watched Forrest Gump. And then paused it for a long while.

Us girls went cycling around my neighborhood and taking pics.

Let me mock Karen here: SHE CAN'T DO TURNS. LOL.

Then we're back on the movie. Holy guacamole people!

If you haven't seen this movie, you better watch it.

I tell you, it's just really, really good. I could say I loved it.

So far, I can compare this to Avatar and watch Forrest instead.

I ♥ MY WEEKEND!

Psychedelic.

2010-07-08T19:47:00.000+08:00

Have you guys heard of Paul the psychic octopus?

The title really just means what it means.

Truth is, it's actually quite adorable.

In a strange, eight-legged, octopus way.

This brown mollusk predicts win for Spain in Fifa this year.

And the amazing thing is: Paul is not wrong yet.

Everything it has bet on has so far an accurate outcome.

Since it's a German octopus, the football fans of Germany are furious. Paul's leads on Spain winning Germany is undoubtedly correct. This leads the owner of the octopus receiving death threats and also a recipe suggestion from football supporters who find it's predictive powers outrageous.

Well I'm listening to Oracle Paul and betting on Spain.

I placed it against my dad, who's supporting Holland.

Whoever looses needs to buy a new printer. D:

So here's the thing Paul, don't fail me now!

What I got.

2010-07-06T19:53:00.000+08:00

I don't know about it so much right now.

I asked my friends. They said some things.

Are they right? I don't want them to be.

I wish I could keep it up.

Not going easy.

2010-07-04T19:58:00.000+08:00

Today was an adventure of a lifetime.

And when I say that, I mean I won't be ever doing it again. Because once is enough for me if I were to live.

I went cycling. About 74.91 kilometers.

No bluff, no joke, no kidding.

A little bit extreme right?

I saw two dead cats.

Gotten chased by stray dogs.

Crossed three rivers.

Went up to an abandoned hotel.

So many damn uphills to get up too.

Honked at for about four times.

Was in a pool with no water.

Almost fell down the drain.

First ones to get home.

Didn't go to church.

I'll get there.

2010-07-03T21:33:00.000+08:00

I've been putting this off a while now, but I think it's about time I did it.

World, my readers, and God too.

On the 16th of June, that was the second day after I come back from my holiday. And on that day, I decided to put my dog to sleep. For eternity. I don't know how many people object to euphemism. But I just can't take my dog shaking from anxiety and suffering badly from kidney failure. And just especially how he can't eat properly. He likes eating too damn much. My dog has the kind of attitude that's all like "we live to eat" instead of vice versa.

I miss my Lucky terribly. He's lived up to 15 years. But only spent 8 years with me. God knows that my dog should submit to heaven, so I let Him take my Yorkie. Well, now what can I do? I don't want a new dog. Or rather, I can't. I'm an only child, but Lucky has kept me company. No matter when I was lonely, or maybe not. I don't quite know how to deal with the emptiness I feel now.

He's buried in my backyard. Below the pretty pink bougainvilleas. Though I don't really like to look at my garden now. Brings back to much memories. I guess I should move on. I'll do it by my own pace. Wondering now, how many people understand what I mean.

Wind.

2010-06-04T19:56:00.000+08:00

I had a thought today.

You can't sleep when you're riding the passenger seat of a motorcycle. That'd be dumb. And you'd have the wind in your face to wake you anyway.

Countdown

2010-06-01T20:27:00.000+08:00

3 DAYS TILL. . .

I'm in Shanghai with my bestest bud in the whole entire world.

We're going to the World Expo 2O1O. It's gonna be awesome.

I CAN JUST FEEL IT ALREADY!

10 DAYS TILL. . .

And me and Mit transact to the wonderful country, Hong Kong.

Staying there for 5 days at my Aunt's. Gonna bust my wallet chyeahh.

BTW I NEED TO PACK LIKE, NOW!

17 DAYS TILL. . .

I see this extra terrifical person I know a lotta bout.

It's been one damn month since I saw him. Imybby.

I CAN'T WAIT 'NYMOREEEE!

19 DAYS TILL. . .

SA Competition at Cyber X. You think I could go?

I wanna wanna wanna so wanna go. Like so badly.

EEEEAHHH. LET'S JUST HOPE SO!

Ho Hum.

2010-05-22T11:02:00.000+08:00

Some memories are like a dream to me. Not so clear whether it really happened. And well in a way, I guess maybe I should think that way about the bad recollections too.

"What a nightmare." I would say just that. Because it really does seems that way.

10 Things.

2010-04-18T13:27:00.000+08:00

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1. Motorcycles.

I just love the thrill of riding one. The speed. The power.

At 120 km/hr, the wide ass smile still ain't coming off my face.

I want a motor license when I'm legit. Maybe also a Kawasaki Vulcan too.

2. Stupidity.

We love it, we hate it.

It's hysterical, it's funny. It kills our brain cells.

Seriously though, what's to do?

3. Books.

I'm thinking about selling some of my LBD books.

There's about 50+ now on my shelf and I currently need more space.

For you know, some newer LBD books.

4. Food.

Well, I've been eating a lot lately.

More or less, junk food. Chips, pizza, cakes, chocolate.

You name them, I've ate them.

5. People.

There are a lot of whiny people in the world.

Also really bitchy, noisy, short ones.

Oh, and don't forget the about the hypocrites!

6. Muay Thai.

After jabbing Andy a couple of times MT style, I was tired.

I felt really great though. And also I was overwhelmed.

Didn't expect I'd miss doing this so much. Gaa.

7. Music.

I have recently been brainwashed with K Pop.

Everything I listen to now is Epik High, f(x), SNSD.

Someone convert me back to the english! Please!

8. God.

I need to find my back to Christianity.

I'm slowly degrading, but I'm still praying.

Help me search my way. I'm lost.

9. Facebook.

I think I'm officially an addict.

I go on there automatically before I do anything else.

Is there a cure to this? This is getting crazy.

10. Television.

It's sitting in the living room, all so lonely.

Everyone wants the computer now.

Poor television. I should go watch it now.

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Update on holidays.

2010-03-21T17:04:00.000+08:00

[Monday 15/03]

Went to Beaufort for the annual grave sweeping with some relative of mine. Haven't been there in ages, and my has it changed. Everything is progressing to the future.

The place where my grandfather's shop was burnt down is now for rent.

The house where my parents used to live belongs to someone else now.

Oh, and I 've discovered deer meat wasn't all that bad.

Just don't let it get cold though.

[Tuesday 16/03]

Went to CT Mall with Mitzi.

And you know what?

Fell

Love.

With this really cute dress I found at De' Clothe.

It costs RM79. Fixed price. I need it.

[Wednesday 17/03]

Singletini.

I worked hard and earned rm30 already.

[Thursday 18/03]

He invaded my thoughts.

He made me smile.

I think I might have been wrong.

[Friday 19/03]

Worked from 9.ooAM 'til 2.20PM.

Tuition from 2.30PM 'til 6.00PM.

Worked from 6.10PM 'til 9.ooPM.

Give me a break already!

[Saturday 20/03]

XDO Competition at Universal Cyber.

Only about 9 people joined.

Winner was Mango.

Prize? RM500.00 & 200 free hours there.

Anyway, you know the shop MNG?

No offense. But get some friendlier workers.

They're think they're fucking something looking at us customers like that? Alright, so I don't have a grand LV bag, or big Gucci sunglasses, or don't smell like 'A Scent' by Issey Miyake. Big deal.

My skinny jeans costs more than your bloody rent.

My coat costs more than you can spend in a month.

My shoes are okay, a little dirty, but shut up. They're not cheap.

Rude salesgirls can provoke buying your stuff.

Sure, you've got some good clothing there I suppose.

But with these bad quality staff you're hiring.

Don't consider me be buying there.

So other than that, me and Mitzi went to Patrick Salon to get our head's washed. RM21 total if you're using normal shampoo and conditioner. Maybe a little costy, but seriously you should try at it.

It's no wonder they've made a name for themselves.

They're just really good at what they do.

Then we met up with Vania and got lunch at Kentucky.

I don't know. Sure they're not the best option.

Though the Bryanni Rice thing kinda taste alright.

I just don't feel up to Mc Donald's burgers anymore.

Other things on the menu would still be okay.

It's just getting kinda boring.

But I guess that's my opinion.

So Sam treated me to ice-cream.

At Mc Donalds. Sundae scoop, vanilla.

Haha, I don't know why I chose that as my birthday gift.

Felt like it. Or either it was also the fact that I just like eating.

He's never been to 1B so I took him for a little tour.

We walked everywhere; three times in thirty minutes.

So much for being the biggest, most exciting shopping mall in East Malaysia.

Well, I did show him this ring I wanted.

It was in a this big, piratey kinda skull in dirty silver.

And pricing was about RM39.90. Though I think it should be cheaper.

I didn't get it though because it would be the wrong kinda gift.

Then later on, we went to Veda Blu.

Shared this dark chocolate ice-cream single scoop.

Well, we just sat there. Looking at each other.

So many random thoughts popping up.

And I was already a little tired walking around so much.

So I slumped in my seat, head on the table, as he watched me.

We met up with them fifteen minutes later.

Planning on how to go back to Centre Point.

In the end, we sat in a big SUV. All nine of us.

Each just paying around RM5/6.

Haha, it felt kinda like a family road trip.

Packed and noisy and above all, fun.

Most of us ate dinner afterwards at some shop.

I just ordered a Pearl Coconut Jelly drink.

Sam was paying for me again.

Ah, chivalry.

This friend everyone knew, but me, popped up too.

He was really tall. He reminded me of some guy I met at church.

Though I figured, maybe he was the kinda person with a familiar face.

So when everyone was finished, we walked to the bus stop.

On our way, this girl gave me a flyer advertising for english courses.

I don't see how I needed it, so I passed it back to another guy doing her job. Yeah, I know rather well that I'm pretty ignorant.

And then as we were walking, I checked out the windows, teasing my hair. Then this complete stranger passed me saying, "Cantik sudah bah moi." Haha, I'm not the kinda person who leaves comments like that alone.

"Terima kasih ah! Thank you!" I yelled back with a smile.

Without a backward glance, the old man waved a wave.

So we continued walking, all of us.

Us three girls, arm in arm, talking about stuff aloud.

The boys behind just watching at us ahead.

We reached the bus stop and on the way my shoelaces came untied 3 times.

P.S. You guys should know, if I wear my black canvas shoes, they come untied atleast twelve times before the day ends.

It just happens.

Then the four of us parted from the five that were going back to Papar.

Truth to be told, it was the first time I sat a public bus here.

It was loads of fun because of the funky pseudo Malay music, my awesome friends and lots of taking the random, bright lights flash.

I had a really great day.

[Sunday 21/03]

I went to Church today. It was rather boring, sad to say.

But oh my gosh, here is the bigger news.

I did it!

I finally bought the dress!

And the previous sales lady lied!

I got 10% discount minus off RM2!

So in the end, it was RM70!

Aiee!

I bought the dress!

After that, I just went home all happy-feely like.

Something else happened tonight.

But I guess I'll reveal it another time.

Thanks for reading.

Cheers.

♥

Comic Mornings

2010-03-02T18:50:00.000+08:00

;&MONDAY

I woke up to the light sunshine out my windows.

'What a wonderful morning', I thought. I smiled.

Though five seconds later, it hit me.

'It shouldn't be this bright at 5.45. ..'

HOLY SHIT.

I flipped over and stared at my clock for a minute or so.

It says '6.17 AM'. I was suppose to go at '6.15 AM'.

I fell out of bed and ran down the stairs. I tripped. I got up.

Into my balcony I flew out to. I see Mit's car still there.

So I started yelling her name out repeatedly.

Then another thought hit me. 'She's in her car. She can't hear me there'.

FFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU-

So then I ran down to my parking. In my jammies. Waving like a mad woman. She spotted me. (Of course she did, who wouldn't spot a girl in pretty pink pj's?) She rolled down the windows and gave me a questioning look. Ohhhh boy.. .

"MY ALARM WON'T WORK AND MY KAKAK DIDN'T WAKE ME!", I blurted out.

"GO ON WITHOUT ME! MY DAD CAN SEND ME LATER!"

"I'LL CATCH UP!"

"I WILL!"

Ah, so she looked a little relieved.

This was much better, no? She agreed.

Anyway, I went back in and started going up the stairs.

But then the phone rang, so my mum woke up at picked up.

She yelled it was for me. I bet it was Mit. Well, I was right.

So she told me, it's alright and stuff. She's gonna wait for me.

But I don't like people waiting for me. So I rushed.

I threw my clothes on the ground, my books scattered everywhere.

I was pretty much done, so I ran down and slipped on my shoes. Suddenly I remembered. No socks. I've forgotten them in my room. So then I have to run three flights of stairs up to get those darn cotton things.

Whooshed out, slammed the door. (Just loud enough to wake my Kakak up) By the time I'm in the car, it's 6.38 AM. I'm not going to repeat that. Ever.

;&TUESDAY

"Hah. My alarm woke me up today.

But it's still early. So I'll just sleep a little longer.

I'm sure my Kakak will wake me this time."

Next thing I knew when I woke up, it was 6.16AM.

My eyes grew huge. Staring again in disbelief.

WHAT THE-?! NOT AGAIN!

Yes, again. So I did what I did Monday morning.

Run, run, run to the balcony. Waved my arms like a nutcase.

Thank goodness Vania spotted me. So Mit rolled her down her windows. Her reaction. Priceless. She hesitates and asks me to get ready. They'll wait.

So here I go rushing around, like a tornado, stuff all over the place.

One big, giant mess for me to clean up after school. Gaaa.

Anyway, my mum heard the commotion and helped me get ready a little.

Then I was out the door and into the car. The clock says 6.34AM this time.

;&WEDNESDAY

Third time's the charm.

I woke up.

My kakak woke up.

My mum woke up.

And I was out by 6:08AM.

noodles of awesome.

2010-02-28T16:54:00.000+08:00

today i went to church.

my past self has told me i wouldn't regret it.

i guess, i really didn't.

and if you're wondering how my past self said that to me.

or whether if i'm crazy and talk to myself. (the answer is no)

i'll tell you how. via futureme.org

it's this website that you can write an e-mail to yourself in the FUTURE.

i'll post mine below. i sent it last year in june. received in on my birthday. hah.

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Dear future of Niccc,

You've made it. You've opened this e-mail. You've survived the year. Thank God he protected you, guided you and helped you all the way. Go to church this week, I promise you won't regret it.

How are things now? The Jolin concert, if you did go, remember the happy moments. If you didn't, who cares? Atleast Mitchii got you her autograph right? :)

Today is your birthday. Rejoice. You're 15 now. In Grade 10 now. Older, stronger, hopefully not fatter now. If you made it this far with Mr Moontree. Congratulations. It a year anniversary. *o*

In three days time, it will be your father's birthday. Draw him a card. Get him a gift. Buy him a pretty little cake.

You got your phone yet? Haha, hopefully it'll be the LG Ice-cream 2 right? Whatever happened to the iPhone, be strong babe.

Remember. You have a blog. Go update it. Don't let it gather interwebdust.

Don't tell me you have not exercised in the past four days. You are getting lazier and lazier. Stop staring at the computer after you've read this. Go exercise damnit.

Here are the things you should've done before you read this:

- Learn another 200 chinese characters atleast.
- Loose atleast 2 kilograms. From the weight you are at 6/2/2009
- Create a comic and not give up after the first page is drawn
- Grow taller. You're absolutely not staying at 163 cm!
- Study more often. Do well in school. You can do it. :D

Anyway, that's all I have to say. Good luck to you. So on and so forth.

Love from the past.

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well, i can't say i've learnt 200 chinese characters. but maybe atleast a hundred or so.

i did loose 2 kilos. but i think i gained 5 in china. besides, i've forgotten how heavy i was on 6/2/2009. so no matter.

mm, i sorta made a comic. it has two pages and an amazing story line. does that count?

i hoped i've grown taller. i can't say so though, because i haven't measured myself in a long time.

the studying part. err. i guess i could say i've accomplished that due to the government exams. hah.

anyway, today i made noodles with my dear ol' dad.

it was the most amazing, elastic, 'song' noodles i've made.

it's so good i even added the word 'song' for emphasis.

;& i have now fallen in love with the Kings of Convenience. :]

Spirit.

2010-02-24T18:57:00.000+08:00

sometimes, just when i wake up, i'm over washed with blank feelings.

and then i'm like this completely different person.

i can't care about anything.

i'm mostly ticked off.

i don't know.

anyway, no shit. mr lim is back.

everyone rushing to copy off answers of each other.

classes with him, no one can afford to relax.

and that's just a quote i stole off him.

kinda scary, but heck, oh well.

we got let off early today cause of our briefing on KKAP.

going there tomorrow for senior students formation.

gotta reach school about 6.30am. craaaaaaaaaaap.

i just noticed nicole's in my group. should be alright then.

;& cheers to homogeneous dilemmas. :)

Give it a week.

2010-02-21T20:19:00.000+08:00

Just back home yesterday.

From CHINA babes.

Yeah, I went on this 8 days long trip tour thing there.

Cold as shit. But give me time and I adapted.

Now the problem is since I'm back in the tropics, my skin gets hot flushes every time something cold comes in physical contact with me. It's bothersome. Just like most things now.

Let's not dwell into that. Anyway I should go do some other stuff right now. Like homework.

;& SCHOOL. DAMN.

everything can go wrong.

2010-01-30T21:25:00.000+08:00

it's a new year.
it's the 30th day.
it's the 2010th AD.

some things are gonna change.
probably a lot of it.

here's my thoughts on school for the first month.

i'm now currently in science stream.
difficult, but bearable if i just do my homework.
thinking of dropping add math and physics.

replacing the subjects with art and english lit.
need those two electives for my future occupation.

a job that's gonna give me $3000 a month.
and maybe someplace to stay in berlin too.
yeah, i know i'm a big, big, big dreamer.
but what's great, is it can get realistic.

anyway, i'm just barely surviving add math.
physics is bad because of the teacher teaching.
biology would be great if i'd listen at all.
chemistry is alright but the teachers shrieks a lot.
national language, as usual, terrible at it.
english has now become more of a challenge.
est is alright since my science foundation is pretty decent.
modern math, too much damn homework to complete.
moral, i have no idea what the teacher is blabbing about.
rk is not as wonderful as the teacher thinks she's making it to be.
pe is stupid since we have to change outfits so many times.

but i will succeed. i will progress well for my future. all i can.
just need to cut back on the laziness and work hard.

;& my new year's resolution is gonna be learning how to cook.

How now brown cow?

2009-12-01T18:33:00.000+08:00

Dear Auntie Kim,

I'm writing to you here because I lost your e-mail address in the mess I brought back to Malaysia. Though I don't know whether you'd read this or not.

How was your flight back? Did you read the book I gave you?

Anyway, I hope you're alright. After that 12 hours in the plane, I'd bet you're tired. So rest up! Oh and I think Luan changed his flight schedule and is staying here up until next Monday. I'm not too clear about that. You'd have to go ask him yourself if you'd like to know.

Miss you much,
Nicole.

Jolly Good Day

2009-11-27T21:42:00.000+08:00

The best ice cream is free .
And from a handsome, charm-your-pants-off guy.

That's what happened to me.

The best gift is the one I wished for.
And Yiu, being a generous person, gave it to me.

That's what's amazing now.

The best sushi is right around the corner.
And Miranna brought me there along with Joyce.

That's what is making me bloat with joy.

The best foot massage is nearby.
And I walked all the way with Yiu and Luan.

That's what's oh so great then.

The best dog to run with is here.
And she's biting my socks off, even though it smells.

That's what's making my toes feel wet.

Just wondering.

2009-11-24T21:58:00.000+08:00

Hey God.

I don't know if You like playing jokes on me.
I don't know if You're listening to what I'm saying.
I don't know if You think it really do matter.

But I asked you a question and well, I'm feeling You kinda laughed at me.

What's that suppose to mean?

c l o v e r

2009-11-23T19:31:00.000+08:00

"Even though I've cried a little bit.
And even though my heart hurts this much.
Thank you for such wonderful days.
Somehow I... somehow, I don't feel so lonely.
Thank you for those days.

Thank you."
quote miss k. rin in clover.

The friendship bridge.

2009-11-15T08:59:00.000+08:00

In this controversy I'm facing, I'm the friendship bridge among my five friends.

The people walking above this bridge is ________.

The water flowing below the bridge would be ________.

The occasional rainstorm that's bound to happen is ________.

The fire that is coming to burn this bridge down would be ________.

On a typical afternoon, the occasional rainstorm has strike lightning on the wooden bridge causing an outburst of wild, angry flames.

Now say the bridge survives the fire. It is than already much more frail than before.

The people trotting on me would expect it's alright to since it's still up. So they continue with their journey, assuming it is, of course, safe to do so.

What they don't know is the water below, has risen up to the point where it's submerging part of the bridge because of the excess rain the place has been getting recently.

And also how it's degrading and rotting the wood in the highly, complicated process.

A few days later, the bridge collapses. People drown. The water is filled with dead bodies.

Where is the win/win in this situation?

crazy in what sense?

2009-11-13T21:33:00.000+08:00

I do not lead a normal life.

I do not do normal things.

I do not know how to define normal.

But I'll admit. I'm eccentric.

Heart-stirring smells.

2009-10-15T19:40:00.000+08:00

[do ya, do ya wanna]

You know how hotels prepare toiletries which you can take?

Well, I always do take them. Now I have plenty, plenty, plenty!

And I'd always wonder I would smell like after using them.

I just love experimenting.. .

. .. Hah! After testing so much out, I've got more negative than positive results.

First up, we've got a Shangri-La Lavender scented body gel.

I actually quite fond of this purple flower and it's smell.

But let me tell you, I'm regretting after using it.

I smelled like a damn medicine cabinet.

Tried to wash out the rancid smell with Lime Basil by Le Meridian.

It says in it's tiny, cursive words it will energize you after using it.

So I thought well, that sounds decent enough to try it out. Okay, why not?

Now I smell like a freaking dishwasher.

Damn, that just pissed me off. So I went back to Bvlgari.

Some expensive company making soaps and stuff for The Venetian.

Boy, I just love Bvlgari. It was the best, free thing I've ever took from a hotel.

Their body lotion sucks, so Novotel's was the better option.

They smell all minty and nice and calming and all.

Haha, typing all this out. I know I'm weird.

;& TOMORROW'S THE WORD.

ever wonder why.

2009-10-13T21:19:00.000+08:00

BIG FANTASTICAL NEWS: PMR IS OVA.

So here I am again. Finally feeling like typing out senseless crap I hope you'll read.

Anyway. My last paper today was Living Skills/Home Economics.

Now I've noticed that every time I feel like updating my blog, it is always when that subject is related. Weird.

So now that my exams are over (for now), I am freee to do whatever the heck I wannanana do (not exactly). Eeeeahaheahiouuueuaaarghs. Yeah, I crush my own happiness.

KDATZALLBAI.

That was short.

End of Conversation.

2009-09-14T18:31:00.000+08:00

Today's PMR Trial Exams: MATH.

Shit.

I think I did badly. But I'm not sure.

Anyway, my darlengluilaopo Mitchii, has struggled, scolded and threw a fit while teaching me mathematics. But I admire her for still putting up with me. People who always taught me math tend to want to choke me. Well point is, thanks. I love youu babe. :)

Oh yeah. I'm taking the Living Skills exam tomorrow!

Wish me loads of good, fantastical luck!

I'll need it.

I won't repeat the same, stupid act I did for my last paper.

In which I circled almost all 'C' and got 18 out of 60. Hahahahhahhahhahahha.

I promise to be much more sane this time and actually read the questions.

Or maybe even ask them, if you know what I mean. ;O

Other than that, I'll be going to MV Doulos tomorrow too! It's a trip organized by the Christian Fellowship Society. Plus this means I won't have to hang about at school after my examinations for some celebration. I'll be in a big, old ship sinking in my love for books and such.

Highlight: IMOGEN HEAP RELEASES NEW ALBUM!

It came out already for quite some time, but I only just found out last week.

I was at Meaghan's house. She was e-mailing people. I was. .. bored. But the music on her iTunes kept me entertained. Then this song with this really familiar voice was playing.

My head beats itself up trying to recognize who this singer was.

As a result, it struck me as it could maybe, possibly be Imogen?

So I asked. And she said yeah, it is.

Boy, I was good.

Okay anyway, she told me all about her new album called Ellipse and let me listened to a couple of her other songs while I doodled on her tablet/computer thing. It was real nice. I really liked Ms Heap's songs. I especially like that track, Half Life and also Tidal.

Look it up if you're into ambience and electronica. :v

;& 1 MORE WEEK TO GO!

Ever wonder what's all these countdowns about? Eh yeah well that's a something I'll tell you next time. Hee. :x

on the verge.

2009-08-15T09:40:00.000+08:00

[all the things you said, running through my head.]

♥ So you know on the previous post, where I told all of you that the majority of my answers are circled 'C' on my Living Skills paper? Hahahahahahahaha. Well, I got 15/60 because of my foolish act. Though it doesn't matter. I still managed to pass because of my course work or something like that. I don't know. ♥

♥ Anyway, I just recently cut my hair short because of this consumer's review kinda thing for my friend's website. So guess what? It means free haircut, mann! Well, I'm not sure if he likes it or whatever, but he tells me he wants it (the length, the cut, blaa). Hahahahahahahaha. Funny. I am now the envy of my boyfriend. Woo. The big reality of it. ♥

♥ Hey, but it isn't like it's this really girly kinda haircut. No, no. Nothing like that. But it is more to a boyish kinda hairstyle that makes me look a lot like a really, really adorable 10 year old. Hahahahahahahaha. Stupid right? :0 ♥

♥ I'm listening to Owl City again. And I just love that song 'Strawberry Avalanche'. Go look it up or something. Hahahahahahahaha. Oh by the way, I love their merchandise too! They've got some really cool-looking tee's and hoodies that I really want. Aarhh. I'm yearn for it so badly. Get me some my loveeeeeeees. ♥

;& 1.MORE.FREAKING.DAY

huff-huff puff-puff.

2009-08-02T20:23:00.000+08:00

[singing my heart out to you.]

My examinations ended on Friday. Last paper was the dreaded "Living Skills". I didn't read half the questions on the paper. What's more is that 80% of my answers are circled 'C'. This time, this term, was harder. Especially Science, Math, Nationa...Forget that.

EVERYTHING

WAS

DIFFICULT.

School ended at 10.25am. So Grade 9 students get to leave school by so because of that. So I went back to the shop. Then, I went out with my dear friend, Hilary. We went to CP and watched 'The Proposal'. Honestly, it wasn't a bad movie. 8/10 rating.

After that, we went to take sticker photos, buy a ruler and also eat chicken rice. Yum. But actually we also bought tickets to watch another movie; 'Ghost of Girlfriend's Past'. Though, we ran out of time and ended up just keeping the tickets as memories. Aww.

Then we went home and cam-whored for hours around my room. Oh ga...My room. Let me tell you about my room. If you just take one look at it, you'd thought it belonged to a 7 year old. No, it does not. It belongs to me. I have bed sheets that have cartoon cats and mice all over it. It has funny glow-in-the-dark stickers and strips of running, hugging people stuck on the walls. But I still love it.

Anyway, it's Sunday today. Ehh, it means Hilary is going back to Shanghai today. And Reagan too. Haha. Reagan is crazy and also just 5 years old. I'll miss them lots and lots. I still remember when he told me he would ride a dinosaur next time and come to marry me. That was funny.

;& oh. 15 more days. remember. :)

You don't really know.

2009-07-26T19:34:00.000+08:00

[ on break. not that i did do anything. ]

I don't know what I'm still doing here. Blogging. Texting. Singing my heart out. I should be studying hard and smart for my exams tomorrow. Well, I will. Maybe, possibly later on. Like at 8'30-ish.

Though you know what? I wish I was smart enough to not study. Too bad wishing just isn't enough. I need huge amounts of effort to make that happen. Like studying regularly. But has anyone of you ever seen me done that? I bet my bottom not.

Seriously though, I need to ace my exams this term. If I don't, forget ever calling me again people. Forget it. And don't even think about texting me either. It's the same deal with that too.

Anyway, I should stop now. I'll probably return to blog in the next month. No, I shouldn't say that. Yien would probably kill me the next day if she read that was true. So I'm guessing the next update would be somewhere around this week. Maybe, yeah.

Well, thanks for reading. Hope you enjoyed your weekend chickies.

It's a sad truth.

2009-07-26T11:58:00.000+08:00

My heart burns.
●

;& I'm not referring to the medical condition of a real heart burn that I'm feeling right now.

june.

2009-07-01T18:56:00.000+08:00

Just so you'd like to know.
She passed away on the 11th.
●
I wish I was there,
To tell her,
That I'll always love, cherish and remember,
Who she was to me.
My dear, dear, grandmother.
Rest in peace.

while eating my 出前一丁.

2009-06-08T11:22:00.000+08:00

[ highlights ]

29/3

exam is finally over babes.
went crazy with mitzi, vania & netty at kdca kaamatan concert.
screamed, not sang, the song gee with netty so loud everyone was looking.
mitzi & vania pretended not to know us after that.

30/3

kiss kiss baby, if you know what i mean.
then to easyway with him meet yien, gee & felix.
then adventure starts with yien.
hide & seek + loads of lying.

31/3

forgot. :O

1/3

yien came to my house for a sleepover. eheh.
we went out to center take millions of sticker photo. bloody tired after that.
then back home drag mitzi & yien to easyway meet gee, hou chean & benny.

after dinner, me and yien ate watermelon. yum.
then i told her a story about how i believe if i swallowed a seed, it will grow somewhere.
i accidently did swallow a seed once. then i didn't drink water for the rest of the night.
i fear it would grow inside my tummy and sprout outta my ass.

then yien went to gee's with benny.
benny took and awfully long time to get to my place.
by the way, sorry i LC'ed you. i don't mean it.
really, i don't. :I

after that whole drama, me and mitzi sulked in complicated misery. oh the grief.

2/3

yien went home. she took my shirt too.

3/3

went to help out at the shop.
it was boring.

4/3

he went to my place and gave me the client.
hugged, talked and so on.
on a side note, we fit perfectly.

plus, i cried like three times that day.
what a baby.

5/3

went to jolin's promo tour with mitzi, yien & vania. i saw law there too. :)
stood there for about 5 hours just to see jolin perform for 30 minutes.

then i went to get jolin to autograph her cd i bought.
i was rotated around in the crowd like a chicken in a rotisserie.
finally, i slipped passed the security guard's noses and joined in the line.
oh hey, not to think that i'm some crazy fangirl of hers.
i just wanna speed things up a notch.

after that, like about at 10pm we went to heng long for dinner.
mmm. wan tan mian. feel the love.

6/6

went out to work again.
i should get an award for being this diligent.

oh. and now i'm addicted to luna.
damn you, you highly amusing mmorpg game.

7/6

woo. i got a so-called "iPhone".
thanks uncle. :)

8/6

mother's coming back today.
after 3 weeks of not seeing her, finally.

and i get a LG Ice-Cream 2 today. ;3

Tagged by Yien. :O (LAWL. TAGFEST MAN.)

2009-06-04T09:41:00.000+08:00

[1 0 0 t r u t h s]

This is quite similar to Netty's.
Furthermore, it's a facebook survey. x)

~~Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.~~

Anyone who wants to do. Just do it.

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. last beverage = Soy Milk. *o*
2. last phone call = Mr Moontree
3. last text message = Mr Moontree
4. last song you listened to = 大塚愛 - 360°
5. last time you cried = Last week.

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice = Guess so?
7. been cheated on = Naw.
8. kissed someone & regretted it = Nope.
9. lost someone special = Yeah.
10. been depressed = Of course.
11. been drunk and threw up = Hmm..

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Black
13. Green
14. Red

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend = Plenty. :)
16. Fallen out of love = Nein.
17. Laughed until you cried = Oui.
18. Met someone who changed you = Ja.
19. Found out who your true friends were = Ehh.
20. Found out someone was talking about you = Yeah.
21. Kissed anyone on your facebook friend's list = Ho Ho Ho~

GENERAL:
22. How many people on your facebook friends list do you know in real life = Almost everyone. :x
24. Do you have any pets = Dogs, cats and fishes.
25. Do you want to change your name = Puii! No way man! ):<
26. What did you do for your last birthday = It's too awesome of a story to type it full here.
27. What time did you wake up today = 7.45 am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = Sleeping. e_______e"
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = My damn phone.
30. Last time you saw your Mother = 2 weeks ago.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = The fact that I'm not close to my family at all.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom = Yeah. Haha. Dear Tommy.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now = This song doesn't have a loop mode.
35. Most visited webpage = dA, Facebook & Blogger.
37. Nicknames = Nicc, Chee.
38. Relationship Status = Happily taken.
39. Zodiac sign = Kawaii Pig~
40. Male or female? = Female eh.
41.Primary School = DSF I
42. Secondary School = DSF II
43. High school/College = MN
44. Hair colour = Brownie-black.
46. Height = 163 cm.
47. Do you have a crush on someone? = He friggin' knows already. Gaaa. . .
48: What do you like about yourself? = I'm crazy enough to take risks.
49. Piercings= None at the moment.
50. Tattoos = Naw. But I use ink to draw all over hands sometimes. Eheh.
51. Righty or lefty = Right-O.

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery = Already gotten.
53. First piercing = Tiada eh.
54. First best friend = Nor.
55. First sport you joined = Running.
56. First vacation = Hong Kong.
58. First pair of trainers = Eh. . .

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating = Sammichh.
60. Drinking = Still soy milk. *o*
61. I'm about to = Sing out my heart
62. Listening to = Refer to answer 4.
63. Waiting for = Him to come. (.>o<.)

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids? = Woo.
65. Get Married? = Wee.
66. Career? = Waa.

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes= Eyes.
68. Hugs or kisses = Hugs.
69. Shorter or taller= Taller.
70. Older or Younger = Older.
71. Romantic or spontaneous = Romantaneous.
72. Nice stomach or nice arms = A pretty belly. C:
73. Sensitive or loud = LoudLoudLoud.
74. Hook-up or relationship = Relationship.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant = None. I:

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger = Non.
77. Drank hard liquor = Haha. In Beijing Baby.
78. Lost glasses/contacts = I don't wear glasses.
79. Sex on first date = Wah. Apa ni?!
80. Broken someone's heart = Hmm.
81. Had your own heart broken = Sure.
82. Been arrested = Nope.
83. Turned someone down = Yeah.
84. Cried when someone died = Obviously. O:<
85. Fallen for a friend? =. . .Yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself = Ja.
87. Miracles = Ja.
88. Love at first sight = Misschien.
89. Heaven = Ja.
90. Santa Claus = Nein.
91. Kiss on the first date = Misschien.
92. Angels = Ja.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
93. Had more than one bf/gf? = Nuu.
95. Did you sing today? = Wooyeah.
96. Ever cheated on a test? = I don't believe there isn't a single person who has never cheated on a test. I really don't. So don't prove me otherwise damnit.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go, and why?= Back to 2001 to slap myself some sense and properly learn my chinese.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? = Aw. That day in Ocean Park with all my friends.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? = I'm afraid of falling out of love.
100. Posting this as 100 truths? = Yes. :)

Tagged by Netty. ;D

2009-06-03T15:00:00.000+08:00

[PART 1]

● When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
♥ FAWK. WHAT'S THAT HUGE, RED, UGLY PIMPLE DOING THERE? ):

● How much cash do you have on you?
♥ RM131. Eheh.

● What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR?"
♥ "Soar". The skies. Woooooo~

● Favorite planet?
♥ Mars. The pretty red planet eh.

● Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
♥ Mr. Moontree.

● What is your favorite ring on your phone?
♥ When I get my phone on Monday, I'm gonna set in Melee's song for my ringtone. 8D

● What shirt are you wearing?
♥ 2% black tee.

● Do you "label" yourself?
♥ As a first class nutcase, yeah.

● Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing?
♥ Kaki ayam o.

● Bright or Dark Room?
♥ Dark room where I can sleep, sleep, sleep at ease.

● What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
♥ She's one sexy dinasaur. ;o

● What were you doing at midnight last night?
♥ Talking on the phone.

● What did your last text message you received on your cell say?
♥ "U gona dl .luna ah xD" e________e

● Where is your nearest 7-11?
♥ Beverly hills. (That's where I wanna be~)

● What's a word that you say a lot?
♥ Cheh. Cheh. Cheh.

● Who told you he/she loved you last?
♥ Mr. Moontree.

● Last furry thing you touched?
♥ Lucky beaaaar.

● How many drugs have you done in the last three days?
♥ I'm a drug-free girl, babe.

● How many rolls of film do you need developed?
♥ It's all digital now. So who needs film?

● Favorite age you have been so far?
♥ 5. I still can remember all those gay-assed moments man.

● Your worst enemy?
♥ None I can think of.

● What is your current desktop picture?
♥ A really awesome picture of me and Mitchii I've awesomely "edified".

● What was the last thing you said to someone?
♥ 爸爸! Pick up the phone!

● If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be?
♥ A million bucks I could do with a lotta-lotta things.

● Do you like someone?
♥ Of course~

● The last song you listened to?
♥ The Afters - Falling into place.

[PART 2]

● Real name → Nicole 程至僖
● Nickname(s)→ Nic, 变态婆婆
● Zodiac sign → 小肥猪 x<33
● Male or female → 女 ;)
● Elementary → DSF I.
● Middle School → DSF II.
● High School → MN.
● College School → IDK.
● Hair color → Brownie-black.
● Long or short hair → Shoulder-length, babe.
● Loud or Quiet → Loud 24/7/365
● Sweats or Jeans → Jeans.
● Phone or Camera → I'm developing a growing love for the phone.
● Computer freak → Like Nett said, not a freak. Is there really not a better word?
● Drink or Smoke → Drink. (`u`)
● Do you have a crush on someone? → He knows already.
● Waiting for → Jolin's Promo-tour, Friday. *o*

FUTURE:
♥ Want kids?→（哈哈哈哈哈哈哈）
♥ Want to get married? → 嗯。。。
♥ Careers in mind → 我不知道哦~

WHICH IS BETTER IN THE BOY/GIRL YOU LIKE?
● Lips or eyes → Cold eyes baby.
● Shorter or taller? → Taller 2cm please. xD
● Romantic or spontaneous → Spontareomantic.
● Look or Sincere→ Sincerity.
● Sensitive or loud→ L. O. U. D. (.>o<.)
● Hook-up or relationship → Relationship baa.
● Trouble maker or hesitant → None, thanks. D:<

HAVE YOU EVER:
♥ Fight → Like. All the time.
♥ Ran away from home → No comment.
♥ Become a play boy → No comment.
♥ Killed somebody → No comment.
♥ Broken someone's heart → Ehh. Maybe.
♥ Been arrested → Naww. I'm a good girl.
♥ Cried when someone died → Yeahyeahyeah.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
● Yourself → 85% of believing power.
● Miracles → 98% of believing power.
● Love at first sight → 67% of believing power.
● Heaven → 100% of believing power.
● Santa Claus → 8% of believing power.
● Tooth Fairy → 0% of believing power.
● Kiss on the first date→ 74% of believing power.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
♥ Is there one person you want to be with right now? → Desperately yeah.
♥ Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? → Alright with life so far.
♥ Do you believe in God? → I strongly believe in God.

TAGGED: MITZI. YIEN. MAY. SAM.

Tagged by Mitchii again! o

2009-06-02T11:48:00.000+08:00

● Who are you?
♥ 大姐啦.

● Are we friends?
♥ No. We're more than that. We're wife & wife.

● When and how did we meet?
♥ It happened so long, long ago that I've forgotten myself.

● Did you like me at all?
♥ I like you more than words can say babbbby. ;D

● Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
♥ Mitchii. Explanation? Something to do with Tamagotchiis.

● Describe me in one word.
♥ Cra-a-a-azy.

● What was your first impression?
♥ Woo! Pretty baby! xD

● Do you still think that way about me now?
♥ YeahYeahYeah.

● What reminds you of me?
♥ My MSN display picture. :O

● If you could give me anything what would it be?
♥ I'd give you my chocolate chip cookies.

● How well do you know me?
♥ I know you better than alotta-lotta people.

● When's the last time you saw me?
♥ Yesterday. D:

● Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
♥ Hmm. I think I tell you everything.

● Are you going to post this in your notes and see what I say about you?
♥ If I knew what that meant. . .

● What is my best attribute?
♥ Your sparkling, enthusiastic attitude dahling.

● Who are you tagging?
♥ Yien.
♥ Netty.
♥ May.

Handsome Guy.

2009-05-28T19:12:00.000+08:00

So. If you've been following my tagboard. Or either Mitzi's.
You'll find a person named Handsome Guy spamming crap.
He's left comments at Netty's tagbox too, but she deleted it.

Netty? How do I know this?

Surprise! Surprise!

Because I'm the so called "Handsome Guy". Oh my gosh, right?!
Well if you've clicked the link, it would've lead you to nickaryjustgotcha.blogspot.com
Even though it is an invalid blogspot ID. Read the URL.

Get it now? NICKARYJUSTGOTCHA.
Haha, yeah. Yien. You're smart. You've got it figured out first.

Well anyway, sorry for any trouble caused. Especially to Nettyy. 쏘리 쏘리 쏘리 쏘리.
And Moontree, you're handsome. I was just playing so don't worry.

All in the name of harmless fun, I'm done.

My crap of a love poem.

2009-05-22T21:23:00.000+08:00

Dear BabyMoontree,

I made this when I first started liking you.

Haha. :)

Well, hope you like it.

♥

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Every now and then,

I wait for you to pass by my classroom door,

Though just a glance is enough,

But I can't help but crave a little more.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

It's dizzying how you smile,

How you could be so nice to me,

Maybe it's just a crazy phase,

But for now, I'd like to wait and see.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

My dear heart just beats,

Slowly and rapidly at the same time,

But all the same, at an odd pace,

Again, again and again.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

I'm drowning so deep,

And how much I like you isn't goin to save me,

Where the answer creeps,

It's likely I'm dead by then.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

But maybe if I give it time,

And patiently wait untill you realise,

It's time to say something,

So I can move on or either just keep dreaming.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

♥

내가 미쳐 미쳐 BABY.

2009-05-17T13:36:00.000+08:00

[CutieQMitzi changed to my school.]

Yeah. Along joined Vania too.Together, we'll conquer.

Watch out world. Here comes 3DearDarlingDestructions.

[Three months with Moontree.]

A fiscal quarter of a year. It doesn't feel like it though.

Time flies so fast, fast, fast when you're having fun.

At first, he didn't know we were approaching 3 months.

But after Mitzi dropping a million thousand clues, he finally got it.

Poor Mitzi, it almost drove her crazy talking to him. Hahahahahahha.

He kept thinking it was my mother's, father's or either my dog's birthday.

[Choking on a fish bone.]

I choked on a fish bone. It was not fun at all.

30 minutes later, I got it out by constantly hacking.

[Practical jokes.]

After choking, me and Mitzi pranked Gee and Moontree.

We called Gee at first, Mitzi claims I had just fainted.

Then we called Moontree, Mitzi now claims I'm choking.

They believed us, and are constantly worrying their heads off.

We rolled on the floor laughing, untill our stomachs hurt.

When we finally had enough we ended by saying "GOTCHA!"

You could guess I've got an ear-bashing from Moontree.

Our next target was actually 陈陈. But he didn't like it, so yeah.

Too bad huh? Sorry that we didn't manage to prank you. Yet.

[Face up to a black dog.]

It was during ECA. 3D's drinking Milk Pearl with Gee. Then suddenly Jeron came. He said he was hiding from someone. Turns out that someone is that black, black dog with braces. Apparently he saw Jeron touch his girlfriend's shoulder and now wants to speak him. He sent a friend to find Jeron. I asked Karen to accompany him 'cause I was still finishing off my Milk Pearl. After a moment or two, Karen came back. That guy said it was none of her buisness so she bu shuang liao o. That made me fucking angry. How dare he say that?! I was going to make that buisness mine now that it involves Jeron. I signaled him to see if it was alright if I went there. His face shows fear but manages a nod. So I went ahead to Jeron and the Black Dog. Moontree asked me not too but whatever. I didn't listen. I has hyper angry.

Then it went something like this :-

Nic (in an angry voice): "Jeron, we need to go. Are you done? I don't have time. We need to leave now."

Black dog stares at Nic.

Nic stares back.

Nic (in an even angrier voice): "Are you done talking to him? He needs to go now."

Black dog stares at Nic. Touches his hair and face and paces around like an idiot.

Waiting for him to answer spoils Nic's mood. Nic felt like punching him if he didn't reply soon.

Black dog (still touching his face): "Can you give me a few seconds more, with him?"

Nic (in the angriest voice, points to the Black dog in the face): "I give you one minute."

Black dog shows traces of fear and just nods. Then Nic stomps off.

Ten seconds later, Nic goes back and drags Jeron away from the Black Dog.

[Shopping with 阿妈.]

Went to Waaaahrisan Square.

There was no electricity there. Ughh.

Bought shorts. Buy 1 Free 1. Hahaha.

Then to Centerr Poooooint.

Ate McFlurry Cornetts. I lovelove it.

[Crazy phone conversation.]

Moontree: "Alaaa. Fattie."

Sunflower: "Atleast I have an ass okay?! Not like youuuu. Tiada ass punya. No meaat de."

Moontree: "Cheh! Who say I don't have owh! Atleast I bodyfit. No like you. No sun choi."

Sunflower: "Pui! Bodyfit waa. Itu call underweight. Everyday eat one spoon of rice oni."

Moontree: "Wahh! What owh?! I eat two bowls of rice everynight laa."

Sunflower: "Your two bowls of rice the size of teacup only ma kan?!"

Moontree: "Where got owh?! I eat healthy okay. Not like you, buttercake, meegoreng, ice-cream. Gain 10kg terus owhh."

Sunflower: "Cheh! Atleast fat itu kawaii maaaaaa. Not like you. No ass. Ala. Ala. No aaaaaass."

Tagged by Mitchii! :D

2009-05-10T16:48:00.000+08:00

● Besides your lips, where is your favourite spot to get kissed?
♥ My wrist. I know you're curious why, but don't ask. ;o

● How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
♥ I felt lazy. I woke up at around 6.00 am to make a Mother's day card.

● Who was the last person/people you took photo with?
♥ Liang Moi Mitzi~

● Would you consider yourself spoiled?
♥ Me? Nawww. xD

● Will you ever donate blood?
♥ Sure, might as well. Save some humans or whatever right?

● Have you ever had a best friend who was of opposite sex?
♥ Of course. I miss him now that he's mentioned. D:

● Do you want someone dead?
♥ Well, I rather that someone dissapears than die.

● What does your last text message say?
♥ "Cheh! Mei you wo, mei you ni kei! xD. . ." and something else. I forgot.

● What are you thinking of right now?
♥ All those good times with my ol' buddy. I miss you badly. :(

● Do you want someone to be with you right now?
♥ Moooooooooooooooooooooontree.

● What was the time you went to bed last night?
♥ Erm, somewhere around 10pm? o.o"

● Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?
♥ In a thrift store somewhere. x)

● Is someone on your mind right now?
♥ Cayce Wong and Linus Hung. :D ILY GUYS~

● Who was the last person(s) who text you?
♥ Moooooooooooooooooooooontree.

● ~~Name nine lucky people to do this quiz:~~
♥ IF YOU SEE THIS, YOU'LL DO THIS! :O

Everyday we meet.

2009-04-26T20:42:00.000+08:00

[Saturday 18/4: The visit.]

He came around my house in the morning.
Brought me breakfast and we ate dumplings together.
Then we went up my room. He said it was messy.
I guess it was, but hey, whatever.

We fooled around a bit.
Talked, laughed, xxssed.
After a few hours, he went to Gee's.
And I went for my tuition.

About 4'30pm my dad fetched me home. I was coming back from my tuition.
But then I saw 十一 and Gee were out in my neighbourhood doing who knows what. My eyes widened, my jaw dropped. It was hysterical, said Gee who saw my expression. Luckily, Mitzi was out by her house. Apparently, 十一 had asked her to go outside. So me and her walked towards them. Finding out why they came and called. Anyway, they came 'cause they were delivering EW for us.

Haha, thanks guys. :)

Then we said our goodbyes with them and returned home.
Me and Mitzi went out to the balcony to enjoy our drink
Watermelon juice for her and Milk Pearl for me.
But then, something misfortunate happened.
I was poking the cover of the Milk Pearl with light force.
The tea was flowing out slightly so I poked it harder to get the straw in.
But then the side of the cup suddenly cracked and exploded.
And the wall (+Mitzi) was splooshed with Milk Pearl Tea.
Spent our last 5 minutes cleaning up. Hahah. xD

[Sunday 19/4: They skip school, we skip church.]

I went out to work that day. I promised my dad.
But then an idea flew into my brain and took over my thoughts.
I asked Mitzi to come to the shop. Then I asked my dad to fetch us to church.
We spent atleast 10 minutes in there. Then we were out and into AC.
Toh sui'ed over there for an hour or so. By the time church had finished, we were back.

♥P.S. 陈陈有个男朋友了！:)

[Monday 20/4: Mum's back.]

She's back today. From Hong Kong.
Her hair is longer now. It looks nice.
But she's going to cut it short again soon.
I just know she will. Gosh, why though?

We're in the car, she tells my father what grandmother has gone through.
Unaware I'm listening, she continues. The stories, they break my heart.
Her kidney cancer. Her operation. How she's unable to walk, eat and barely talk.
And there was one incident where my grandmother wanted to get out and walk so badly.
So they let her. She walked herself to the toilet and fainted there.

My grandmother's being discharged at evening.
Released into my aunt's care. Oh dear, oh my.

[Tuesday 21/4: Darling, you're sick.]

I brought dumplings to school, hoping to share it with him.
But's he's sick. Has a high fever, says everyone.
So I asked Leslie to bring it home for him.

Then later in the evening, I recieved a call. It was him.
He says he's feeling much better. Thanks for dumplings and all.
But you know what? He said his mum wouldn't let him eat it due to him being sick.
So instead, the mum gave it to her helper to eat. Oh wow.
All that wasted effort. Gone. Down some stranger's stomach. Gosh.

[Wednesday 22/4: Finales.]

He's feeling much better, so he came to school.
Talked to him a while before class started.

I had a secret surprise for him.

Recess, I would attempt again to share dumplings with him.
So I waited eagerly. Waited. Waited. Waited.
My dumplings were getting cold and my eagerness faded.
I ate one. Then two. Then another two.
Saving the last for him if I see him later.

It was second recess. Still he was a no-show.
I asked around. Apparently, he had went off to KKH.
Went to watch the basketball finals. STTSS vs Kian Kok.

;________;"

Now that's the second day in a row my dumplings has yet to reach his lips.

[Thursday 23/4: 我很想念，挂念，思念你啊.]

Me and Mitzii sung "Lonely in Gorgeous" a thousand million times that night.
Our throats began to hurt, so we drank Milo to soothe.

Haha. :)

[Friday 24/4: Grade school kisses.]

Yien didn't come to school today. 为什么呢？
She has a heaaaaaache. She's better now though.

I skipped CF today. Went to watch him play basketball.
Actually moreorless, talking with Gee and Andrew.
Then he came over. Gee went home. Andrew went to eat.
I tried on his glasses. Said I looked like a 'haam po' worr. Pui. Dx

♥P.S. Oh hey! Friday's title has some meaning to it~

[Saturday 25/4: “嗨! 我们是. . . TALESWEAVER !”]

MN Idol. Lame name for a school talentime.
Yes, I know.

Anyway, 我的变态蝴蝶 joined this year.
With his group, Talesweaver, they sang 孤单摩天轮 by 飞轮海~
Hypeeeer Hello Kitty Kawaaii! 他唱到很可爱啊！ ☆★☆★

[Sunday 26/4: Like nothing else.]

So in the evening, me and Mitzii went jogging!
We jogged the first round.

...

..

.

And then left it as it was.

We went to eat ice-cream next! Yay!
I've got two scoops of peppermint chocchip.
She had one scoop peppermint chocchip and one scoop vanilla.

Then we decided maybe we'd eat the ice-cream while jogging!
Oops! Bad decision girls because Mitzi suddenly dropped hers! Oh no!
So we turned back and bought her another scoop of vanilla ice-cream!

I was finishing mine when I spotted another place that sold ice-cream!
I debated on whether or not to buy ice-cream again. In the end, I did.
Another two scoops of peppermint chocchip. Mitzi bought 100+ to drink.

This has got me thinking, our purpose of us going jogging was to loose weight.
But I think after that fiasco, we gained more than we hardly lost. Hehehehehe. :D

[Monday 27/4: It's so fun!]

Oh. My. Gosh. Oh. My. Gosh.

My daddy bought me a Bamboo Fun.

FYI; It's a tablet. With multiple uses. xD

Thankyouthankyouthankyou~

[Tuesday 28/4: I forgot what happened.]

我忘记了我那天做过什么。。。

[Wednesday 29/4: I forgot what happened, again. ]

我真的也忘记我那天做过什么。。。

对不起啊。

[Thursday 30/4: Warning. Post contains F-bombs.]

Mummy discovered I didn't really go Youth last Saturday. Yeah, I didn't write a story on that. Too bad. Anyway, she told me a someone told her that they saw me in KFC with one big group of people. That's just bullshit. The real story was me and Mitmit with two other people were drinking 7UP Revive, eating nasi lemak and so on at AC. But still.

That stupid fucking someone can just mind your own fucking buisness alright? I don't fucking tell you whether your fuck of a daughter or son or whatever has gone out to McDonalds with 30 other people and having some fuck of a fun. That's because I mind my own fucking buisness. If I ever discover who the fuck you are, I'd sow up your fucking mouth and kick you to Holland.

So turns out my plans of going out on Friday are totally cancelled. I had this intensely long lecture from her. She trusts me less now.She didn't actually scold me or anything. And I apprieciate the fact she won't tell my father what I did. Well, I don't know. This must be a lesson from God, with the message of, "Stop using Youth, CF and Church as excuses to do your own stuff."

Lord I apologise, forgive me.

[Friday 1/5: May Day.]

I'm staying at home, while everyone else is going out.

Well, I can't go out. Woop di doo dah dae ae oe way.

Listening to Beatles while typing what I'm typing.

I'm bored as bored can be. Oh save, save me please.

P.S. It's not kidney cancer my grandmother has, it's pancreatic cancer.

[Saturday 2/5: Nobody knows.]

Did nothing much today.

Ate the last 老婆饼♥.

Talked to him for awhile.

Excited about tommorrow~

☆★ Seeeeeeeee you soon Netty Bear! ★☆

;& END OF TWO-WEEKS WORTH POST.

oi, number 11.

2009-04-17T20:39:00.000+08:00

[TOH SUI. MY PRO SKILL.]

Hahahahhahahhahahahhahahahha.
Yesterday, I skipped school and follow Mitzi go KKH for the Inter-School Basketball match.
Hahahahhahahahhahahhahahahha.

Maktab Nasional vs Shan Tao; 29 - 33.
Almost could've won. Because they didn't put number 11 in.
But nevermind. After the match I toh sui with number 11 to CENTRAL POINT.
Spend him lunch luu. Then go 7-11 buy slurpee for Mitziii.
Then we walk back to KKH. But cannot find her at all.
Left, right, north, south, east, west. Tiada Mitzi.
So, I drank the slurpee. It started to melt.
Sorrrrrrrrrrry ah, Mitziiiiiiiii. T^T
Then finally when walking back to the canteen, I spotted her.
Actually moreorless, she spotted me.
Then we talk, talk, talk about what to do next.
Nicole: "Ey, nevermind larh, I toh sui in the Urusetia untill you habis class larh. Meet you at the 'MASA ITU EMAS' place later."
Mitzi: "NOOOOOOOOO. Cannot! You gila arh? Wait so long. You join me in Physics class larhh. The teacher very good de, he don't care onee."
Nicole: "Yeeer. No need leh. Later your discipline teacher pass by, I mati owh."
Mitzi: "Eeeeeyer, nevermind larh. I feel guily later you alone."
Number 11: "Haih, you follow her go phsyics larh."
Nicole: "No need."
Number 11:"Need."
Nicole: "No."
Number 11: "Yes."
This goes on for quite a while.
Nicole: "Fineeeee. I follow you go Phsyics. But if your teacher ask me what school I'm from, I say La Salle ah. (LOL)"
But after a few minutes, I changed my mind because of this paranoid fear of really having the discipline teacher pass by the class.
Orr. I'd just use that as an excuse to see him again.
Then, I rannn back to himm.

After that, and a few minutes later, he went home. So I walked to the canteen.
And waiteeeeeeed. Aloneeeeeeee.
But then, Mitzi came to my rescue! :D
Offer me a second chance to join her Phsyics class.
Naturally, I accepted.
Hahahahhahahhahhahahaha.

When she brought me into her class, it fell silent.
Everyone was staring with great intensity.
But then the noise started filling in again.
And the class was blatant again.

Then me and Mitzi went home.
Though our adventure is still going on!
WE lepak to EW.
Then to KFC.
Then to 7-11.
Then to reload Mitzi's phone.
Then to Milimewa.

When we were walking back home, Mitzi spotted her mum's car.
She told me as soon as she realised it. So we ran, she and I.
She ran faster than me and was already 20 steps ahead.
We ran into this nearby neighbourhood to hide for awhile.
Then we walked back home with yet again paranoid thoughts.

Then we go my house toh sui. Then I lend her shirt. Then she went home. Then I go bath. Then. Then. Then. Daddy took back his phone. But he come home early to cycle. So I got it back. Hoorray. :)

Then SMS terus with people. Talk, talk, talk on the phone with people.
Remembered I need to do project, but was really tired. So I set the phone alarm on 11:30. But...then my dad came into my room while I was sleeping and took away his phone.
So no alarm. No wake up. Didn't do project.
Luckily teacher didn't scold me for not doing so.

Today didn't skip school. Guai-guai study hard. :)
Then recess got seee him for a whileeee.
A very too short whileeee.
Then he balik cyber.
So I balik class. :(

Then me and Mitzii meet again today.
And then play play har NDS tertidur.
Hahahhahahahhahhahahha.

Then later, meet again.
Laugh, laugh, laugh.
Play NDS again.
Sing, sing, sing.
Toh sui-ing + blogging.
Hahahahhaahahhahahaha.

;& I dah tahus. Longest post ever possibly.
You read all this? Or is it tl;dr material? xD

dorkshop's exposé

2009-04-08T19:33:00.000+08:00

HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY; 烧肉 GIVES 叉烧 A 蝴蝶!
TERRIBLY SHOCKING NEWS OF THE WEEK; MY 婆婆 HAS CANCER.
YESTERDAY'S TIDINGS; MY 妈妈 HAS 飞去香港 TO SEE HOW MY 婆婆 IS.
AND ABOUT TOMMORROW; 我和 DARLING 陈陈 WILL FINISH 学校 AT 2PM!

almost done with the old one.

2009-04-03T20:28:00.001+08:00

[Oh my gosh. Thank you.]

After months and months of searching...
'The Book Thief' is now mine.
I'm currently reading it.
And it's wonderfully intriguing.

I highly recommend it. ;)

+, +, +,
Now that I found my book, I've crossed it out of my wishlist.
( Click the 1st seahorse to see! )
I need a new wishlist.
Almost done with the old one lehh~

;& I'm so hungry nowadays.

So I'm going to fatten myself with food now. 8D

More like a dragonfly, less like a butterfly.

2009-03-29T10:27:00.000+08:00

[How I miss it so.]

I went out with him last night.
It was fun.
Played foooosball. Lost 0-3. ;__;
And he even went on handicap for me.

Then after that, we went for dinnnnnner. I can't believe he paid for the meal though.
The least I could've done was go dutch with him.

But he insisted. Isn't he chivalrious? :)

After the meal we went to the docks. Walking hand in hand, just talking.
And then we somethingsomething'ed.
More like a dragonfly, less like a butterfly.

Suddenly, a thousand million lightning striked around us. Like sudden flashing disco laser lights. Oh by the way, I'm afraid of lightning. So I kinda kept rushing us to get back.
Though we didn't actually untill much later, he had pushed his way past my fear to reassure me we were going to be alright.

Well by the time we went back, it was because of the fact I pushed my way past his bravery and planted my paranoid fear of getting struck by lighting. xD

But before that, we watched the whole SH shut down it's lights for Earth Hour.
Surprised me that they were joining in the event too, albeit it was nice to know there are still Earth-concious people living among the buisness.

;& oh. When I went home, I couldn't sleep.

I'm blaming him because I would catch myself waking up every 2 minutes and think of him.

It went on untill 6 in the morning when I decided I would just forget sleeping altogether and go read a book. :I

Smiling, like it's nobody's buisness.

2009-03-23T19:13:00.000+08:00

[What goes on behind the doors?]

We didn't see each other for a week. Not untill today, basically.
I was dying to run over to his class row and hug him crazy during assembly.
Hahaha. But well, we kept stealing glances at each other across the hall.

During recess, we spent it together in my class.
Talked about stuff. Held hands. Smiling, like it's nobody's buisness.

Though there were many a times, where I'd picture a scene of which the discipline mistress suddenly kicking open my classroom door and yell in a blatant manner, "YOU'VE BEEEEEEEN BUSTED! GET OUTTA ROOM AND INTO MY OFFICE! NOWWWWWWWWWWW!"

Anyway, after school, in which I waited for his class to finish.
Kelvin, being the good friend he is, waited with me.
We talked about loads of random crap.
But after that, he finally came down and Kelvin went home.

We fooled around quite a bit around his class.
My cousin almost caught me. Gosh.
And when it was almost time for him to leave...

He planted this little wet, warm butterfly on my lips.
It lingered for a moment and my face went red.
I burried myself into his shoulder for quite a long time.
But shame he needed to leave.
Oh, and my cousin almost caught me again.
Is she stalking me? :O

Asked me to call him. Better go do it now.

;& I just noticed. I just need to click "compose" to get my funkylicious options.

How ignorant of me.

Doing what we do, screwing who we screw.

2009-03-18T12:29:00.000+08:00

[What happened Blogger?]

No colours. No sizing up my text. Nothing.
Where has all the funkylicious functions gone?

Well, went out with Mitchii yesterday.
Guess I can cross that off my list now..
Anyway, we bumped into a lot of people we knew.
Including fabulous ol' Jeanetty. :)

Saw Dragonball Evolution.
The effects were effing fake. Not much logic into it.
Then again, where would this movie be if it had logic?

But nonetheless, it was quite funny.
There was a scene where they started chanting.
And the chant sounded a lot like "nasi ayam, nasi ayam."*
Hahaha. xD

+, +, +,
I listened to Lily's songs.
I can cross that off my list too.
She's a fabulous singer.
And the lyrics are half the reasons why I like her.

"The first time that you introduced me to your friends
And you could tell I was nervous, so you held my hand."

;& *"nasi ayam, nasi ayam" means "chicken rice, chicken rice" if you didn't know. :D

A week's worth.

2009-03-15T15:50:00.000+08:00

[9.03.2009]

Ooh! Ooh! Monday!
Went to Jesselton Hotel to do my research for History.
Then to it's Bella Italia Ristorante for lunch.

OMNOMNOM SALMONE PENNE IN CREAM SAUSE. >:D

There was this old, abandoned, burnt up, graffitied building nearby.
Went there to have a look and take photos. Eheh.
See that picture up there? That's what I'm talking about.

[10.03.2009]

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
The bell ranged, and he got up.
But before he left, he hugged me.
"I miss you," he says.
My heart melted.
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
Then he opened the door and got out without a backward glance.
I ran towards the door and looked out.
Watching him making his way back up to his class.
My heart drowned.
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

[11.03.2009]

TIME FOR YOUR INJECTION KID.

Got my injection for anti-tetanus.
Hurts every minute. As if I was jabbed over and over again.
Plus, I was suddenly laughing mad in english class.

I blame that stupid shot.

[12.03.2009]

Outward Bound School; Group 7.
Three majorly suckish people was in my group.
Urghh. Had to put up with their deaf-mute attitude.
Talking to a tree would have given me more response than them.

Throughout the whole day, my heart ached.
And not in the "Don't leave me baby!" kinda way.
More like a "I just squished whatever that was with a zamboni" way.
Hahaha. Guess I was just tired.

[13.03.2009]

This is the second time this year Friday 13th has appeared on my calender.
There's another one coming soon by November too. :O
But enough with this superstition crap.

Was really bored. Period.

[14.3.2009]

Nurul's birthday party was good fun.
Took a lot pictures. With other people's cam-phone.
Eheh. :)

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
Then upstairs with him for one helluva cuddle.
Funny thing was, there was a security camera installed nearby.
I was like, "OH HOT SHIT" when I realised.
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
I gave him a little peck on the cheek when it's time for me to go home.
After I realised what I have done, I sorta kinda ran away to my car.
But of course not without saying goodbye.
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
Then paranoia took over me so that I couldn't sleep.
That's what you get when you do silly things.
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

[15.3.2009]

Stay at home. Not go to church. Talk, talk, talk to Yien. Then blog.

;& finally, end of post.

munch, chew, swallow.

2009-03-08T18:39:00.000+08:00

[I can't stand it.]

I finally went to church today. But I didn't feel like going.
Because it's pastor boy singing lead and pastor lady preaching.
I preferred it last time, when this really cool guy sang lead.
His voice was made of awesome and he was a great guitarist too.
Plus also when the really funny bishop was there to preach.

It's so horrifying to hear the pastor boy sing.
I feel like throwing a brick at him.
While the pastor lady preaches mid-sermon, she cries.
Her voice cracks and I can hardly hear a thing.
It annoys me so freaking much.

+, +, +,
I've got no school tommorrow. ;)
Rejoice brothers and sisters!
But I've got a history project to research on.
Oh, oh, oh no. So help me.

{I miss him so.}
Four days without seeing him.
It kills me.

;& HAPPY BIRTHDAY CAYCEE!

My darla cousin, come visit me in M'sia soon kay?! ILUVYOU! 8D

Shrimp boat love.

2009-03-05T23:54:00.001+08:00

[ wicked awesomeness.]

Got 72% for Math. :)
It's a miracle!

This new layout's so marvelous.
Eheh. Seafood Lurvee. xD

Talking to him tonight was great.
Funny, crazy and magical.
I didn't even mind when he said 'nothing'.

Aww, Karen. Don't be sad.
You'll do better next semester.
ILOVEYOUUDAHLING. ;]

Mitzi has blogspot.
That's the most awesome news I've heard all day!
(besides getting 72% for maths)

;& I'm still going at my project @ 12:07. Ain't that sad?

Little Miss Messy Rants

2009-03-04T15:34:00.000+08:00

[ .:Oh Oh Oh:. ]

Exams are over. 8D

Celebrate with me baby!

We'll open a bottle of sparkling apple together!

+,+,+,

I think I look nice in the picture you see above.

why yes, that is me.

My eyes are all sparkly and stuff. Eheh. :)

I don't like how you're always saying nothing when I want to hear you say something! Please! Please! Please! I'm a girl! So when you say nothing, it always means something to me, even if it doesn't! Don't you get it at all?! And even if there was something you wanted to say, just say it! I don't care how stupid, how crazy, how pointless it is! Just freaking say it! What I do best is listen, and you're taking that away from me just by saying 'nothing'. It makes me think you don't want to share whatever you're feeling with me. And it makes me re-think who I really am to you. I feel like shit when you say that! The first few times when you said that I tolerated, but now. This is too much! I feel like choking you! It makes me not in the mood to talk at all. Well, I don't know. I'm stopping about this. My english got worst just by typing out all this.

x.fuckedup

;& rantrantrant. O:<

Ehh. March.

2009-03-02T02:00:00.000+08:00

[It's MARCHH!]

1. Do you like chinese food?
- Of course.

2. How big is your bed?
- Big enough to fit alotta things.

3. Is your room clean?
- Depends on your idea of clean. Eheh. :)

4. Laptop or Desktop computer?
- Laptopp.

5. Favorite comedian?
- Lavelle Crawford. Damn, he's funny.

6. Do you smoke?
- Naw. I ain't doing anything stoopidz.

7. Does anyone like you?
- He does! He does! ;D

8. Whats the sexiest thing about Condolezza Rice?
- She's not actually rice!?!??!

10. Sleep with or without clothes on?
- With my clothes on! My Gaaa...

11. Who sleeps with you every night?
- Me. :v

12. Do long distance relationships work?
- Just not everytime.

13. How many times have you been pulled over by the police?
- Not once. Not twice.

14. Pancakes or French Toast?
- Pancakes with that little square piece of butter on top!

15. Do you like coffee?
- I like how it smells, does that count?

16. How do you like your eggs?
- Seasoned and scrambled. :J

17. Do you believe in astrology?
- If they forsee goodness in my stars, yes.

18. Last person you talked to on the phone?
- Him.

19. Last person on your missed call list?
- Don't have a phone. So, uh yeah.

20. What was the last text message you received?
- NO PHONE! DOES THAT REGISTERR?!?

21. McDonalds or Burger King?
- Burger King.

22. Number of pillows?
- 4 pillows. Yeah, I'm surprised that the bed could fit me too.

23. Last thing you ate?
- Sammich with ham.

24. Last thing you bought?
- Robot tee from EX(treme).

25. What are you hearing right now?
- 唐禹哲- 情报

26. Pick a lyric?
- "You're gone from here and soon you will disappear, fading into beautiful light." Everbody's changing - KEANE.

27. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich?
- ehh. Strawberry.

28. Can you play pool?
- 不可以啊！

29. Do you know how to swim?
- Yeah, sure thang. 8D

30. Favorite ice cream?
- Chocomint is love.

31. Do you like maps?
- Maybe. If I was lost or something. I'd love a map.

32. Tell me a random fact:
- I like to read. >__>

33. Ever had a hard on at work?
- ehh. No.

34. Ever attend a theme party?
- Nope. :

35. Ever did a keg stand?
- Whu-?

36. Craziest place you've slept after a night of drinking?
- UNDERAGE. CANNOT DRINK.

37. What is your favorite season?
- Spring. So pretty. :)

38. What is the first music video you ever saw?
- Something from the Wiggles? ;__;

39. Pick few movie quotes:
- Jack Sparrow: Did no one come to save me just because they missed
me?

- Phone operator: Welcome to Hezbollah phone line. For terrorist supplies, press 1.

- Victor: And with this candle... I will light your mother's dress on fire!

40. Favorite quote:
- "Screw the rules! I have money!"
Guess where that's from. ;D

41. What is your favorite hangout?
- My balconyy.

42. Best friend's name?
- Mitzii, Karen, Kelvin, Reagan, Jeron.

43. How long have you known him/her?
- erm. I don't know how to answer this...

44. Last time you laughed at something stupid?
- Just a moment agoo. xD

45. What time did you wake up this morning?
- 8'05. :)

46. Wake up next to anyone?
- Nooo. Dx

47. Best thing about winter?
- I get to wear all sorts of other things I can't wear because of the
hot hot weather here!

48. Name a couple of favorite colors:
- Red, yellow, green.
stoplight colors. eheh.

49. How old are you?
- How old are you?

50. What month is your birthday in?
- Februaryy babehh. 8]

51. Do you think pirates are cool or overrated?
- The cooliest. :v

52. Favorite Dave Matthews Band song.
- Nevar hearda him.

53. What are you doing this weekend?
- Tuition. Finishing up my notes. Yeahh.

54. Who will take this tag? ILOVEYOU!
- YIEN, I CHOOSE YOU! ILOVEYOUTOO!

;& Exams are tommorrow. ;_________;

It's so crazy.

2009-02-27T21:26:00.000+08:00

[Leave a tag, will ya?]

Yeah.
Talk about "duh" as I figure out that all I have to do is revert it to classic template to get this pretty little layout.

But enough about that.

I had a really marvelous day.

I went out with some friends afterschool.
But before that, I left my books, uniform and whatevers responsible to my cousin.
She wasn't happy with that option.

Went to EX(treme).
Bought a shirt with little funky robots all over.

Saw "The Punisher ; War Zone".
So bloody, albeit really awesome.
Looked away at certain gory scenes.

You gotta lurve the cuddling when he's cold.
Eheh. ;)

;& am very tired.

I end here. Good night.

Sick as sick can be.

2009-02-22T11:50:00.000+08:00

[You know the saying, "When you be fevering, you grow taller"?]

I've grown taller, skinnier even.
That's what my mum claims.
But I don't know.
I just feel sick.

I'm constantly thirsty. Even while I'm drinking water.
I've got a runny nose. And it hurts when I blow it.

I wish I could do my work.
But I'm using my sickness as an excuse.

;& I hope I don't have to go to school tommorrow.

I need to finish up projects.
By this week. Damn. ):

ARGHH.

2009-02-19T20:49:00.000+08:00

[How am I to change my template?]

There is no solution to that question.
I cannot do anything about it.
And soon my head is going to explode.

Oh whatever. D:<
I don't care anymore.

Anyway, my father's birthday is today.
There's nothing to watch on the telly.
YIEN CHIN. THANKS FOR THE CUP.
Plus, plus, plus, I miss my NDS. ):

;& I'm bored to my limits.

My face has gone numb.

2009-02-15T17:20:00.000+08:00

[And from what and why and how, you ask?]

From squishing the telephone against my face for about 3 hours or so.
Just because I was talking to a teacup-full of people.

Well again today, I did not go to church.
Is creepy tired, though I slept at 8pm last night.
Am very hungry, could eat you if I wanted to.
Shall faint soon, due to starvation and a really uncomfortable bed.
Will somehow survive, but don't expect much. eheh.

P.S. My birthday is tommorrow.

;& in case you were wondering...

Unleashing my need to tell the world whatever, whenever.
I quite like the idea. Thus, nickary.blogspot.com was born.

it's oh so quiet.

an oversight.

lily allen, you mad genius you.

deprived.

The Last HP Movie.

God, him and finally me.

I'm not always brave.

a half boyfriend.

you were meant to be mine

Adventure

Confessionals.

Sports.

Word game.

Whole new year.

Against Child Violence.

Friday.

Frugal poodle.

Spoilers.

Eye candy.

Americanized.

Tragedies.

Long time.

I'm deluded.

My dA.

Sleeping Bear

Weekend Fun

Psychedelic.

What I got.

Not going easy.

I saw two dead cats.

Gotten chased by stray dogs.

Crossed three rivers.

So many damn uphills to get up too.

Honked at for about four times.

Was in a pool with no water.

Almost fell down the drain.

First ones to get home.

I'll get there.

Wind.

Countdown

Ho Hum.

10 Things.

Update on holidays.

Comic Mornings

noodles of awesome.

Spirit.

Give it a week.

everything can go wrong.

How now brown cow?

Jolly Good Day

Just wondering.

c l o v e r

The friendship bridge.

crazy in what sense?

Heart-stirring smells.

ever wonder why.

End of Conversation.

on the verge.

huff-huff puff-puff.

You don't really know.

It's a sad truth.

june.

while eating my 出前一丁.

Tagged by Yien. :O (LAWL. TAGFEST MAN.)

Tagged by Netty. ;D

Tagged by Mitchii again! *o*

Handsome Guy.

My crap of a love poem.

내가 미쳐 미쳐 BABY.

Tagged by Mitchii! :D

Everyday we meet.

oi, number 11.

dorkshop's exposé

almost done with the old one.

More like a dragonfly, less like a butterfly.

Smiling, like it's nobody's buisness.

Doing what we do, screwing who we screw.

A week's worth.

munch, chew, swallow.

Shrimp boat love.

Tagged by Mitchii again! o